Mixed bag kind of Post...
I think its kind of funny how some posts are 'OMG HAPPY HAPPY JOY JOY!!' and others are all, sad and kind of depressing. and like, RIGHT after one another.
one minute i'm a crazy fangirl, the next, i'm just a girl with real life problems and such. Oh life. you have such a twisted sense of humour.
It's funny to me, though, because I'm thinking about how awesome Castle and The Mentalist are, but I just had a convo with a girl here at work (and yes, i'm writing an lj post through email to myself so I can post it later) and it was on a more serious matter.
One of her friends is a psychologist (or something) and She was going to get her to look into Support Groups that aren't based out of churches (which is what Shelley gave me. Numbers for churches that she was pretty sure had support groups). Not that I have anything against churches, or religion, or whatever. But it makes me think that if something is based out of a church, there might be religious undertones to it, and since i'm NOT religious AT ALL, i'd rather not have to deal with that. So we were talking and she was thinking about seeing someone, or a group, because she thinks she might be depressed.
When i first started working at Ritchie Bros, an email went out about a Depression Seminar that was going to be held in one of the training rooms, and if ppl were interested, they could sign up and go. But then it got cancelled and it was never rescheduled. So that kind of sucks, because at the time, I WAS interested, and I still am. Not that I think i'm depressed. But just because, I think it would be good for me to go.
So we chatted a little about that, and we were both like, we should go out for coffee one day and just talk about stuff. Because I love this girl. I really do. She's been so supportive of me, and keeps telling me how strong I am. And that really helps me out. I'm not trying to "toot my own horn" or anything. When people tell me how strong they think I am, it just kind of motivates me to keep doing what i'm doing, and not slip. I mean, if I can be strong, then anyone can.
Saying that, i think that both me and SM (my friend) are really good at going through the motions, and making it look real. There are days when I do just go through the motions, and fake my cheerful demeaner, and nobody says anything. And they usually say something when they know I'm having an off day.
I'm going off on a tangent now, because i was just looking at one of my many calendars and it reminded me. I was supposed to go to kelowna to have a girls weekend with the fam on the second week of may. I think it was maybe last week that my sister and I realized that it was Mother's Day. When we went to days this monday, we said we were going to call our aunt later in the week just to confirm our plans, but my dad was all, well, you know girls, its mother's day that weekend. And he made it sound like we shouldn't go. So i don't know if he wanted us to stay because he needs us or what. So on tuesday we call mimi, and ask if we were still on for that weekend. So my aunt and my sis talk, and then I guess they were thinking of switching it to the May Long Weekend, but we had to make sure that it fit with everyone else's schedule.
Now, I'm not sure how everyone else feels, but I kind of would have liked going on the mothers day weekend. It would almost be fitting, having a girls weekend - me, my sis, my two girl cousins, my aunts. My mom would have approved, i think.
On the other hand, my dad may need us. I don't know. or, he may just want us around so we can celebrate mother's day with grammy. He didn't actually say why he wanted us to stay, but we got the impression that he did.
Also,
goldenrockstar is currently in a Battle of the Bands, and the second round is on the 9th. And that's the round he really wanted people to go to. So, I was a little torn. But i just got an email today from my aunt and I think she was saying that May 9th is out of the question, because she has to hold a fundraiser or something. And that's not her copping out, since she's the one that planned this whole girls weekend. She's basically the only one left to do it. And its an annual thing. So. now we're just waiting to see when everyone is available to go to kelowna again.
Anyway, we'll leave that there. On to more happy things, like tv.
oh tv. what would i ever do without you? Wednesday night, my sister were all ready to watch new eps of Criminal Minds and CSI:NY.
Since my sis is very awesome, for my b-day, she got me S1 of How I Met Your Mother (which we pretty much finished in two or three days because it is THAT awesome), S1 of MacGuyver (because i love RDA), and S3 of Criminal Minds.
So we decided, after finishing HIMYM, we'd start on CM. We watched the two eps we REALLY loved, then started from the beginning. So wednesday night, we watched a couple eps, then at 8 decided to see if anything was on or if he had to wait til 9 or something. the TV said that CSI:NY was on, and we were both O.O because usually its not on at 8, but ok. It was an old one, not too old, and we didn't really remember that particular ep, so we watched it, and it was good. Then at 9, nothing was on.
When i got home after work, I had started playing the Sims again, because OMFG, i just want to fulfill at least ONE of my ppl's aspirations. So i made one of my chick's finish college and move in with her college girlfriend (because yes, she's a lesbian. I didn't even make her into one, she's just attracted to girls). So i made them move in together, then decided that i was going to get my original couple's last two kids out of the house.
WHICH I TOTALLY DID. But i'm jumping ahead. So at 9pm, nothing was on, and I was all, I kinda want to play the sims, so my sis is like, ok, i'll go read for a while, and we'll watch CM at 10, and we aggreed and everything was good.
So i booted up my PC (Bertha), and i got kinda distracted by the internet, and I decided that I was going to set up my next ep of The Mentalist (The Thin Red Line) while I played the sims. So I played the sims, and it felt like it took FOREVER, but i played until my last two kids - twin girls (Georgie and Lilah) turned into teenagers and i shipped them off to college. Then i was all, Hmmm, Mares hasn't come out yet, i wonder what time it is.
FRICKING 11:42 PM. (and yes, that was the time EXACTLY. I remember because i was very surprised). I figured my sis must have fallen asleep (which I confirmed yesterday when I called her to talk about dinner). I was going to shut down my compie, but remembered I had a mentalist episode all ready for me to watch. It was, so I watched it, AND IT WAS GOOD.
PS? I totally love CHO. I love the whole team (even though Jane and Lisbon are kinda my faves) I totally love Cho. I love them all. But I do love Cho.
Anyway, I watched the ep going to bed and then i dreamed about... i think a company trip, and guns. or something. it had nothing to do with the ep i watched, but whatever.
I think for the next little while, i'm going to set up my next ep for The Mentalist, and play the sims until Maren gets home. I'm going to marry off those 6 kids and make them have babies, so my original couple can BOTH have their aspirations completed.
But seriously, would ANYONE in real life EVER want to marry off 6 kids? Not that I have a thing against big families, but OMG 6 kids!! I could never dream of doing that. Of course, I'm only required by my family to have 2, but i'm pretty sure that if they thought they could get away with it, they'd make me have more. I'm already having 2 different KIND of kids for them, they can't ask me for much more. HELL, they're requests are pushing it.
Oh, I don't know if I've put it up here.
Ok. So. My Aunt/cousin(s)& sister have put it upon me to be the breeder of my family. I've probably mentioned it before. Its kind of a joke, but they are half-serious. So, okay, fine, I'll be the one to have kids.
First off, I thought I was having kids for my sister and cousin Kim, but apparently my other cousin Tish (who has a brother who's probably going to have kids ANYWAY) is in on it too.
Still, ok, no problem.
I thought, you know, it being MY body and evyerthing, that i would get to have kids with my future husband (whoever that may be).
Apparently, I was wrong.
No, APPARENTLY, these aren't just MY kids (who i'm kind of having for my family even though I do want kids eventually), NO, these are my FAMILY'S kids as well, and THEY have requirements.
No, I'm serious. (in a half-joking kind of way).
Even though I'M the one HAVING these babies, since i'm having them for my family, they want certain things.
My sister wants them smart. That's her top priority. Kim wants an Irishman (dark hair blue eyes, NO GINGERS), and Tish wants a Black man.
I know what you're thinking. Why not just find a smart, half-black, half-irishman (dark hair blue eyes, NO GINGERS) to have a baby with?
If only my family was that accomodating.
Nono, I have to find a smart black guy, and a smart irishman (dark hair blue eyes NO GINGERS), and have a kid with each. Hopefully, my son will be the half-irishman (dark hair blue eyes, NOT GINGER), since my nana probably won't be TOO happy with one of her great-grandkids being half-black. (yes, she's kind of racist, but she's really a sweet little old lady. besides being racist. but we mostly ignore that part).
This is my life. I'm the baby on that side of the family. Well, not anymore, not really, but since our two younger cousins are a LOT younger than ME, and didn't grow up with us, we kind of don't count them. ITS MEAN, i know, but it was always the 5 of us growing up for a long time (Kim, Tish, Mares, Cam, Me). Christine is... 8 years younger than I am. So when she was old enough to visit midway (when her family even bothered), it was kind of up to me to entertain her, because out of EVERYONE, I was the closest to her age. And then there was Mattie, but he's... jeez, I think he's 12 years younger than I am. 12-15 years younger, AND he lives in Costa Rica. So. Basically, I'm still the baby, even though i'm not. This is just a fact of life. I will forever be bossed around by my family. And I take it, just because I know my place. Not that I mind, overly. The whole thing is kind of a joke, even though they are half-serious.
But i love my family.