Application period
So I did three subscriptions today, in two different hospitals and all for Radiology. My strategy will be applying for different specialties in different hospitals so I can postpone my decision to after the results are out - how brave am I?
Next week I'll subscribe in the city's children's hospital and on the week after, is the application period for the university hospital... I still haven't decided to what I'm applying there. Until four hours ago it was Opthalmology, but...
This afternoon I went to this school hospital, which is where I studied, to get a teacher's signature that I need for my CV. So while I'm walking through the corridors looking for him I run into one of my favorite teachers - a pediatrician, surprise! - and we're all hugs and "what's knew", then she asks me which specialty I had chosen and I say "pediatrics".
I don't know why I said it? Everytime I hear this question my automatic answer is always "don't know" or "haven't decided yet". My teacher was so happy to hear it and started saying how wonderful and that I would be her intern... At that moment I was happy too, talking to her, looking around at the pediatrics floor convincing myself that I WILL be happy as a pediatrician.
But as soon I left the building the uncertainty came back. No matter how much I love the children, the work, the science and the teachers... I still have doubts about it. I swear, my hands are like ice and I'm feeling a pressure inside my heart just typing about this.
*deep breath*
Nevermind, I'll stick to the strategy and decide after Xmas. For now I should only study and not worry because if I don't pass in any hospital, there won't be any options to choose in the end! Duh! Go back to your books Tati!
Silly thing. I did something I always wanted to do but never managed because my hair was alway too short. I tied my hair in a knot!!! I feel so cool!!!