Jan 17, 2019 10:12
Hello!
This morning I've gone on Facebook after long time, and I found that two old friends (maybe now just acquaintance), with whom I went to Japan 4 years ago, came back to Japan during Christmas time. One of them sent me a message some time ago, saying that they were going to come back to Japan, but we didn't meet many times after our trip 4 years ago. Being with them for 10 days has been a little difficult sometimes, so I just decided not to hang out with them once we came back home. And so I did. I don't hate them or something, it's just that we are different for some things so I prefer keep the distance. Plus, when we came back home, I was busy with my job and other family stuff, so we never met again. Of course we sometimes chat through the phone, but very rarely. I know that I didn't act correctly, cuz they really wanted to meet me, and I always found an excuse not to meet them. I know, I know, I've been a bad girl, but I didn't enjoy their company, so that is all. Anyway, I looked the photos of their last Japan trip, and I am really happy for them, cuz I know how they love Japan. So, I asked myself "What about you? Don't you want to go to Japan again?". OF COURSE I WANT!
But...yeah, BUT... I start to hate the word BUT. I mean, there are a lot of BUT:
- BUT you have to work
- BUT you have to save money
- BUT you are not studing Japanese for years
- BUT you have nobody who would travel with you
And, suddenly, I start to think...
My passion for Japan, for jpop music, anime, drama, allowed me to know many people. It's true that I went to Japan just one time so far, but, even if I was at home, I enjoyed chatting with other people from many different countries, who love Japan as much as I do.
I miss this side, I miss talking with other people, about everything connected with Japan, like music, dorama, anime, school, language, trip....
Maybe I became too lazy even to do this?! I honestly don't know.
Of course, the last months have been weird, after my experience with that weird Japan guy. I thought to have lost my passion for Japan, but, like many people said me, it was just matter of time. Indeed, now I feel really better, I re-start to read manga, listen japanese music, watch different tv shows and so on. Still, I miss talking with other people. And this is pretty weird, cuz I usually prefer to be alone and I am that kind of human being who avoids social contact xD
So, well, if someone would like to talk, my LINE id is giulia.91, you can add me xD
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