Is this thing on?
Does anyone even post to LJ anymore?
I was surprised that I even remembered my password...or that there was still account...
I havent bothered with this thing for over 2 years...
But I'm here now.
Once again, I am just blathering random thoughts out. Guess I'm just lonely. Or at the end of my rope. Whichever.
Being ostracised due to my own stupidity out of everything in my life; or that my life was, I should say; is the hardest thing I have ever dealt with so far.
I'm almost 42 and have thrown everything that was good, or decent, or worthwhile away...and now I have nothing.
People say that that is when you take the pieces and start rebuilding from scratch, but I dont know how to even start trying to accomplish that.
I wish I still had Casey in my life, but I threw that away as well...even after the innumerable chances she gave me to fix things
no money. no job. no friends. no lover.
I dont even write as well as I used to. Guess its just par for the course.
fuck it
I was surprised that I even remembered my password...or that there was still account...
I havent bothered with this thing for over 2 years...
But I'm here now.
Once again, I am just blathering random thoughts out. Guess I'm just lonely. Or at the end of my rope. Whichever.
Being ostracised due to my own stupidity out of everything in my life; or that my life was, I should say; is the hardest thing I have ever dealt with so far.
I'm almost 42 and have thrown everything that was good, or decent, or worthwhile away...and now I have nothing.
People say that that is when you take the pieces and start rebuilding from scratch, but I dont know how to even start trying to accomplish that.
I wish I still had Casey in my life, but I threw that away as well...even after the innumerable chances she gave me to fix things
no money. no job. no friends. no lover.
I dont even write as well as I used to. Guess its just par for the course.
fuck it