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Updating. I really don't talk much about myself on here. It's hard to. I don't really know whether that's weird or not, because I like to share and tell people things, but not real things about how I really feel. A lot of the time it's sort of like I'm more of an observer than a player, for lack of a better word, in the world. I just get distracted, and I don't like things that are real. The news scares me, the idea of talking to people about feelings and serious issues scares me. I'm scared of everything and I hate it. So I pretend I'm not here, and I don't like thinking about the fact that I am.
See, now I talk about me a bit. But only because I thought of it. Oh crap. I lost. Sorry, if you don't know what it's about don't ask and if you do remember the 30 minute period. That's the second time today. Ummm...yeah, me. I think the other reason I don't talk about me is that other people are just so much more interesting. I look at myself, analyze everything I've said that day, week, month and I'm always amazed at how much of a complete idiot I am. It's not a fun thing to do, probably not healthy either. But can't do anything about it.
I'm scared of being all alone too. Probably my worst fear. All alone and in the dark with something trying to get at me. Eh. That's all you get, whoever actually reads this.
See, now I talk about me a bit. But only because I thought of it. Oh crap. I lost. Sorry, if you don't know what it's about don't ask and if you do remember the 30 minute period. That's the second time today. Ummm...yeah, me. I think the other reason I don't talk about me is that other people are just so much more interesting. I look at myself, analyze everything I've said that day, week, month and I'm always amazed at how much of a complete idiot I am. It's not a fun thing to do, probably not healthy either. But can't do anything about it.
I'm scared of being all alone too. Probably my worst fear. All alone and in the dark with something trying to get at me. Eh. That's all you get, whoever actually reads this.