Blech
I hate dissolving stitches. It feels like I'm constantly on the verge
of swallowing something I'm not supposed to be. And get yer minds out
of the gutter on that, b/c post-oral surgery care dictates no hot
liquids *or* straws, so there sure as hell ain't gonna be any of THAT
any time soon, lol. I'm very tired of lukewarm tea already,
though. It's just WRONG on so many levels!
I still feel like lead weight too. :-( It doesn't usually take this long for drugs to pass out of my system. And I'm tired, but it's like I'm overtired - listless and energyless but can't sleep. Fucking annoying.
therealltf has been listening to me rattle on about Green Day for a while now, which is only fair as I listen to her rambles about Jason lol, but he's not doing anything right now so she made me a huge batch of screencaps just for me from the AOL concert stream and from the Jesus of Suburbia video. If anyone's interested in seeing them, I posted a bunch on favorite_son, here (AOL) and here (JoS). I actually have a whole bunch more AOL ones to go through but I abandoned them yesterday in favour of JoS, lol. What a fucking brilliant video, and we've only seen the supercondensed 6:29 minute one! I can't wait til they decide what to do with the full-length 14 minute version and we can see that, as well as the full song 9+ minute version
Need to spend some time writing today, as unenthusiastic as I feel about it. I'm behind in my self-set deadlines. Actually I'm pretty much behind in everything. It's October 16th which means in 3 months the application deadline will have passed for the grad program I'm supposed to be looking at, and I haven't done anything; I'm not sure why, other than fear. But I'm so tired of being afraid. I'm just tired of everything. Everything takes so long and I've already wasted so much of my life. I feel like I'm at a big crossroads and every direction has a deep chasm waiting for me, and I'd be perfectly happy to take a leap of faith if I only knew which fucking way to go.
I still feel like lead weight too. :-( It doesn't usually take this long for drugs to pass out of my system. And I'm tired, but it's like I'm overtired - listless and energyless but can't sleep. Fucking annoying.
therealltf has been listening to me rattle on about Green Day for a while now, which is only fair as I listen to her rambles about Jason lol, but he's not doing anything right now so she made me a huge batch of screencaps just for me from the AOL concert stream and from the Jesus of Suburbia video. If anyone's interested in seeing them, I posted a bunch on favorite_son, here (AOL) and here (JoS). I actually have a whole bunch more AOL ones to go through but I abandoned them yesterday in favour of JoS, lol. What a fucking brilliant video, and we've only seen the supercondensed 6:29 minute one! I can't wait til they decide what to do with the full-length 14 minute version and we can see that, as well as the full song 9+ minute version
Need to spend some time writing today, as unenthusiastic as I feel about it. I'm behind in my self-set deadlines. Actually I'm pretty much behind in everything. It's October 16th which means in 3 months the application deadline will have passed for the grad program I'm supposed to be looking at, and I haven't done anything; I'm not sure why, other than fear. But I'm so tired of being afraid. I'm just tired of everything. Everything takes so long and I've already wasted so much of my life. I feel like I'm at a big crossroads and every direction has a deep chasm waiting for me, and I'd be perfectly happy to take a leap of faith if I only knew which fucking way to go.