Unreachable
Title: Unreachable
Pairing: Inoo Kei x Yabu Kota (InooBu)
Type: Oneshot
Genre: Romance, angst
Disclaimer: The boys aren’t mine.
Summary: -
Warning: My English is bad. This is just so-so and brick-boring-brick as well --"
A/N: Inspired by 'California King Bed'
It’s blinding.
It’s only a lamp left to give small shine in this room.
Actually, Kei already turns off the lamps, lies down on the bed, and prepares himself to go to dreamland. Everything feels so right, so natural, nothing weird. All he should do is just sleeping so tomorrow he won’t wake up late for their morning practice. But, neither sleep nor even shut the eyes for a second he can do.
The reason is just too simple to be true. Kei can’t sleep only because he shared a room with Yabu Kota in unison. As usual, JUMP was divided into four rooms and he got the jackpot to sleep with Yabu. Moreover, the bed beneath them lying is a double one. In other words, there is not even a barrier for him to reach for Yabu, just as he always dreamt before.
It’s only need to raise his hand to hold for Yabu’s fingers, it’s only need to turn his body 180 degree so he can meet Yabu’s sleeping face; which he always loves for no reason. The breath sounding comes from the older guy feels so peaceful yet hurt so bad. It’s not because he hates Yabu so he feels not comfortable, it’s just because he loves him....so damn much.
Once more, Kei drew for a deep breath, tries to endure all noisiness inside his chest. To be said, he was so happy when he knew he will sleep in same room with Yabu. But, definitely, it’s not that easy to face it. Not even little bit close to easy. As contrary, it’s so fucking hard. Because he can’t count about how many times he should stop breathing when Yabu asked him for conversation, for eating together, for giving him a shining smile irresponsibly, and it’s just...too much...
Tick...Tock...
The clock still passes away, makes Kei realized he spent his previous seconds in useless. Nothing he can do. Even after Yabu slept before him, he still can’t get any courage to face the older guy. He’s totally a coward. Even worst than it. Maybe people will say he should confess about his feeling and he won’t know the result if he did nothing. But, talk is cheap. To do as them said is never been easy. Not even easiest after Kei saw those photos of Yabu and his girlfriend were leaked into public. That proves him something, that he must believes, Yabu Kota is a straight
Kei roses from the bed and walks to the bathroom. He immediately turns the sink and fresh water drips down endlessly from such place. He splashes those to his face, tries to wash away all his complicated mind and acts as natural as he can, just like what he did for these thirteen years of their time.
“Kei...stop it...you have no chance. He doesn’t love you. He has a girlfriend. They are so happy. You are nothing Kei...nothing....”
After he did a monologue to himself through mirror, for second time he lets a heavy sigh to the air. Yeah, he is nothing. He’s just too familiar in Yabu’s eyes, too ordinary, not special and no more than best friend for Yabu thus Yabu considers him just a part of his usual scenery. And if he still feels hurt when he realized such fact...it means that he’s stupid. Well, he really is. No more architect Inoo Kei who graduates from Meiji University and claimed as the smartest brat in JE because...he’s just an idiot when it comes to Yabu Kota.
“I feel like I am a girl. I shouldn’t be like this. C’mon Kei...you are mature. You are a guy...”
Is all he says. Before he slaps both cheeks of him and steps outside from the bathroom. But, his heart suddenly throbs faster when he finds Yabu already sits on top of their bed, no more sleeping. The skinny guy welcomes him with a very sinful smile because somehow he just doesn’t realize how that smile tears Kei’s heart into pieces.
“Kei...something happen?”
“........................ No. Why?”, he tries to answer casually
“Because I can tell that you haven’t sleep yet. It’s 1 AM already. You are not a type who sleep at this hour right? Except when you worked for thesis”
“Nothing happen. I just got sudden insomnia”, he walks closer to where Yabu is sitting. Even if his feet are so heavy, and somehow he is too afraid if he can’t control himself to hug Yabu because now the latter is so cute when his hair is messy and he looks like a sleepy cat, but he forces himself to get closer so the older won’t think something suspicious.
“........................”
“I’m gonna sleep now”, again, Kei says, even if those phrases seems so skeptical on his ears.
“Kei....”, this time, for nth time Kei should holds for his breath. Yabu’s hand is being a criminal for ruffling his hair in gentle way, that makes him feels like dying and out of world. “Kei...if you have problem you can tell me. We are best friend since long long time ago. You should trust me. When I have my problem, you are the one whom I believe, remember? So, it’s okay for you to lean on me. As for now, I don’t know what’s your problem. But if you want to talk then my ears are more than ready to hear it. If you not, I won’t force you. But, I just want to remind you that you’ll always have me”
We are so close
But you seem so far away
Your hand on me
But I can’t really get you into mine
And when I just tried to delete you from my mind
Once again you courage me and make me weak
So, what I supposed to tell?
What I supposed to do?
“Kou...”, Kei suddenly rises from his sleeping pose and sits properly. Now they are glaring each other. And Kei knew how he always loves the guy in front of him. The guy who always gives him caring sight and encourage words whenever he needs it.
“What? Wanna talk?”
He shook his head. “No...but lemme be like this for a while...”
Kei landed his face onto Yabu’s chest. Trying his hard so the tears won’t fall down. And it becomes harder when Yabu pats his back in lovingly way, that makes all feeling inside his chest explode brutally. He can’t handle it, he can’t be hypocrite that he really loves Yabu. But, it doesn’t mean that he can say it bluntly either. No need to jump from 10th floor to know how it feels when someone decided suicide right? So, by keeping all the burden himself, Kei holds for his tongue to stay shut. It’s enough...a simple hug like this is enough. No more. He doesn’t want to break their friendship and their brotherhood for half of his life. Because once he blurt his feelings later, everything won’t back to normal, everything will ruin apart. So, let it be like this. And he knows...for someone like him...loving a straight guy feels like walking on top of glass fraction.
---END---
Pairing: Inoo Kei x Yabu Kota (InooBu)
Type: Oneshot
Genre: Romance, angst
Disclaimer: The boys aren’t mine.
Summary: -
Warning: My English is bad. This is just so-so and brick-boring-brick as well --"
A/N: Inspired by 'California King Bed'
It’s blinding.
It’s only a lamp left to give small shine in this room.
Actually, Kei already turns off the lamps, lies down on the bed, and prepares himself to go to dreamland. Everything feels so right, so natural, nothing weird. All he should do is just sleeping so tomorrow he won’t wake up late for their morning practice. But, neither sleep nor even shut the eyes for a second he can do.
The reason is just too simple to be true. Kei can’t sleep only because he shared a room with Yabu Kota in unison. As usual, JUMP was divided into four rooms and he got the jackpot to sleep with Yabu. Moreover, the bed beneath them lying is a double one. In other words, there is not even a barrier for him to reach for Yabu, just as he always dreamt before.
It’s only need to raise his hand to hold for Yabu’s fingers, it’s only need to turn his body 180 degree so he can meet Yabu’s sleeping face; which he always loves for no reason. The breath sounding comes from the older guy feels so peaceful yet hurt so bad. It’s not because he hates Yabu so he feels not comfortable, it’s just because he loves him....so damn much.
Once more, Kei drew for a deep breath, tries to endure all noisiness inside his chest. To be said, he was so happy when he knew he will sleep in same room with Yabu. But, definitely, it’s not that easy to face it. Not even little bit close to easy. As contrary, it’s so fucking hard. Because he can’t count about how many times he should stop breathing when Yabu asked him for conversation, for eating together, for giving him a shining smile irresponsibly, and it’s just...too much...
Tick...Tock...
The clock still passes away, makes Kei realized he spent his previous seconds in useless. Nothing he can do. Even after Yabu slept before him, he still can’t get any courage to face the older guy. He’s totally a coward. Even worst than it. Maybe people will say he should confess about his feeling and he won’t know the result if he did nothing. But, talk is cheap. To do as them said is never been easy. Not even easiest after Kei saw those photos of Yabu and his girlfriend were leaked into public. That proves him something, that he must believes, Yabu Kota is a straight
Kei roses from the bed and walks to the bathroom. He immediately turns the sink and fresh water drips down endlessly from such place. He splashes those to his face, tries to wash away all his complicated mind and acts as natural as he can, just like what he did for these thirteen years of their time.
“Kei...stop it...you have no chance. He doesn’t love you. He has a girlfriend. They are so happy. You are nothing Kei...nothing....”
After he did a monologue to himself through mirror, for second time he lets a heavy sigh to the air. Yeah, he is nothing. He’s just too familiar in Yabu’s eyes, too ordinary, not special and no more than best friend for Yabu thus Yabu considers him just a part of his usual scenery. And if he still feels hurt when he realized such fact...it means that he’s stupid. Well, he really is. No more architect Inoo Kei who graduates from Meiji University and claimed as the smartest brat in JE because...he’s just an idiot when it comes to Yabu Kota.
“I feel like I am a girl. I shouldn’t be like this. C’mon Kei...you are mature. You are a guy...”
Is all he says. Before he slaps both cheeks of him and steps outside from the bathroom. But, his heart suddenly throbs faster when he finds Yabu already sits on top of their bed, no more sleeping. The skinny guy welcomes him with a very sinful smile because somehow he just doesn’t realize how that smile tears Kei’s heart into pieces.
“Kei...something happen?”
“........................ No. Why?”, he tries to answer casually
“Because I can tell that you haven’t sleep yet. It’s 1 AM already. You are not a type who sleep at this hour right? Except when you worked for thesis”
“Nothing happen. I just got sudden insomnia”, he walks closer to where Yabu is sitting. Even if his feet are so heavy, and somehow he is too afraid if he can’t control himself to hug Yabu because now the latter is so cute when his hair is messy and he looks like a sleepy cat, but he forces himself to get closer so the older won’t think something suspicious.
“........................”
“I’m gonna sleep now”, again, Kei says, even if those phrases seems so skeptical on his ears.
“Kei....”, this time, for nth time Kei should holds for his breath. Yabu’s hand is being a criminal for ruffling his hair in gentle way, that makes him feels like dying and out of world. “Kei...if you have problem you can tell me. We are best friend since long long time ago. You should trust me. When I have my problem, you are the one whom I believe, remember? So, it’s okay for you to lean on me. As for now, I don’t know what’s your problem. But if you want to talk then my ears are more than ready to hear it. If you not, I won’t force you. But, I just want to remind you that you’ll always have me”
We are so close
But you seem so far away
Your hand on me
But I can’t really get you into mine
And when I just tried to delete you from my mind
Once again you courage me and make me weak
So, what I supposed to tell?
What I supposed to do?
“Kou...”, Kei suddenly rises from his sleeping pose and sits properly. Now they are glaring each other. And Kei knew how he always loves the guy in front of him. The guy who always gives him caring sight and encourage words whenever he needs it.
“What? Wanna talk?”
He shook his head. “No...but lemme be like this for a while...”
Kei landed his face onto Yabu’s chest. Trying his hard so the tears won’t fall down. And it becomes harder when Yabu pats his back in lovingly way, that makes all feeling inside his chest explode brutally. He can’t handle it, he can’t be hypocrite that he really loves Yabu. But, it doesn’t mean that he can say it bluntly either. No need to jump from 10th floor to know how it feels when someone decided suicide right? So, by keeping all the burden himself, Kei holds for his tongue to stay shut. It’s enough...a simple hug like this is enough. No more. He doesn’t want to break their friendship and their brotherhood for half of his life. Because once he blurt his feelings later, everything won’t back to normal, everything will ruin apart. So, let it be like this. And he knows...for someone like him...loving a straight guy feels like walking on top of glass fraction.
---END---