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I haven't written in a while.
I can't believe how much I've changed this year so far. I've already picked my major -French!- and now I finally have a goal to work towards. I'm going to start taking some upper division classes next semester, which is a bit frightening. My hair is longer than its been in many years, and I like it. The ends curl in and out in various directions and I guess its just crazy like the rest of me. You probably won't recognize me. Yeah, you probably would. I guess I could run through my thoughts and life in a more organized manner than this.
School: My academics are doing very well. I am excelling in what I need to excel in, which is good. I could really do more of my reading that I have been, but I'm getting back on track lately. I find my History of Art Classical Mythology class to be pointless, yet interesting. I am glad that the only thing left to do in that class is a research term paper (around 9 pgs.)- due at the last day of the semester. In the meantime, we have to do a lot (A LOT) of pointless readings each week. Doing research is actually intriguing to me, and I could literally spend hours in the library looking through the millions and millions of books there. Its so fascinating. I am really actually excited to do the paper, the topic I chose is the Parthenon. Its going to be intense. Oh, the adrenaline. I need more time so that I can actually read the hundreds of pages of literature I checked out on it, though. Yeaherrr. French is intense as well. We are doing subjunctive, which is the most painful tense EVER. I don't see the point of it whatsoever, and the conjugations and rules are endless. But thank goodness my teacher moved our test back from tomorrow to friday. Linguistics is hard and yet the biggest joke of a class ever. If you want to major in GRAMMAR, this is the major for you. I am beginning to hate it, because the midterms were so damn hard but the homework was easy (ish). Its a love/hate relationship, I suppose. Enough of this, though.
Living spaces: Its working. There are some people who I wish I could be living with right now, but my roommate is cool and we get along. The floor smells like pot right now because the people next to us are smoking. My fish is still alive and awesome, like me. I picked up my room a lot today, I've been neglecting it due to band and other laziness. Laundry is another story though, ughhh. Fucking laundry. AND the damn pigeons that live outside my window. I want to kill them. Seriously. Ask me for my pigeon impression; its amazing.
Family life: Way cool. Talked to my brother on the phone a bit. Parents still stressed out as usual. I can't wait until Thanksgiving.
Social life: Pretty darn good, if I do say so myself. This is where I have changed the most. I find myself doing things I wouldn't usually do around anyone ..well, that reads this, I guess. I've gotten so much more open about doing new things, hanging out with people, etc. I finally figured out how to not stress about things, unlike everyone around me. I have no idea how I did it, but I don't stress about anything anymore- social situations, schoolwork, family things, awkward things. Its just not worth it to me anymore. I've gotten so laid back, its awesome. I definitely feel a lot different than I used to, when I would have panic attacks about the smallest things. Now they come very rarely, and are only about bigger things. I don't know what triggered this change in me, but I am liking it.
Lets see, Iots has passed since I last wrote. Went to UCLA for the game and saw Ben there, what a blast from the past! That was before the fires started. I enjoyed that trip a lot, even though it was blasted hot at the game. The bus rides were reallllly long, but I survived. At the hotel people from my section gathered in our room and we had drinks with jello shots in them. They were amazing, like candy. We watched the Family Guy star wars episode or whatever. It was pretty funny, but I was super tired and not really paying attention. The next weekend was ASU- pretty much the biggest disappointment of my life. We didn't win, ASU fans were the rudest, meanest, most perverted, scariest, horrible people I've ever met, it was really hot, I didn't get to see michele, and it was a waste of my money. Plus I didn't go to the Halloween party that weekend because it was the night before we left for Arizona. Rawr. Friday's party was lame because I got sick and idk. The person I wanted to be there wasn't :(. Went to a cool party with my friend Andrew Saturday, though, and I got to make my own drinks. Plus it wasn't a band party, so it was nice meeting new people (who in turn invited me to more parties, lol- its a cycle) and seeing some of my non-band friends there who go to the same frat as Andrew (or who I met at Andrew's frat). Then went with him to get dim sum on Sunday. An over-all good weekend. Plus we won the game and the video game show was a huge success. So I think the awkward phase with hookupguy#1 is over, but is still present with hookupbutwantmoreofguy#2, mainly because I practically swoon every time I think about him or see him. But its weird having the tables turned and liking a guy who doesn't and will not like me back. It leaves me to my daydreams and fantasies and dialogs in my head. Oh, I'm such a romantic. And then theres Kyle, who represents everything complicated in the world. But I needn't go into that with anyone. Save michele. And then I forgot about possibleguy#3, who I am convinced likes me, but eh, no thanks. too complicated.
Oh yeah! and speaking of new things, Sunday we celebrated V for Vendetta. My friend Elisabeth and I shared our first pot cookie, and it was kind of amazing. Im still not into the smoking bit, though. I told my brother and he says we have to do some together. Wooo thanksgiving weekend. anyone up with me? i know i know, shame on me, blah blah blah...oh yeah! wait! I Don't Give A Crap What You Think. So take that. V for Vendetta was amazing though, and not only because I was happy :P. Alas, again, guy#2 didnt show up :(
And one YOU for old times stake, for someone who may or may not even have a livejournal: YOU need to get over yourself and stop being a dumb hypocrite. People don't like YOU because we are stick and tired of YOUr stupid whining and bitching about everything! YOU try way too hard and I still don't forgive YOU for being an asshole.
Oh yeah! and here are some links to our awesome field shows. If you watch one of them, at least, let it be the video game show. It rocks, even if you don't get to see much of mario running around or Oski fighting the Stanfurd tree. Or hear the announcements. Its still good.
video game show:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8QNI3W8UB-s
the SKA show:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mUqRn2R4thY
the soul show:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JldRk25NufQ
hope you like!
I think that's about it. Thanks for reading.