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I had two exams today, and one was worth 75%. I've made it my personal duty to tell everyone I've come into contact with this fact. Probably in an attempt to salvage my self-esteem. If I do poorly on either or both of those exams at least I will have a valid excuse for why I did poorly. In reality though, I'm not cut out for this and I should own up to it. I just want to pass. I'll raise my standards at another point in time. Sometimes when I'm studying I just think about how much nicer it would be if instead of studying I could nestle against someone's chest and put my arms around them and kiss them softly on the lips and not have to feel so alone and inadequate. But I know things like that just aren't meant for me and then I go back to learning about all the steps in an action potention and the depolarization of a neuron and all the different voltage gated channels and how important sodium influx is.