My life is upside down
This weekend changed everything. I quit the cup. Officially. I talked to Angie for almost an hour, cried my eyes out about everything. I talked to her about my parents, my brother, John, the Cup, school, and life in general. Im going to miss seeing her everyday. Im not coming home this summer. It is official that my parents are getting divorced. Mom is moving out this summer, but again, Im the only one who knows this. There is no way that I want to be around for that. I'd rather just be gone. Im taking a 4 week class here at school, finding an apartment, and finding a job. I have no idea how this is all going to happen in the next, oh, about a week, but im going to. You couldnt get me to live at home if you tried. I feel so horrible leaving my brother. I feel guilty leaving him to deal with that alone. He shouldnt have to. I don't want to, but I can't deal with it all. I came home to find out that my mom doesnt wear her wedding ring anymore. My dad has no idea what is going on, and no idea what is coming at him in the next couple months. I'm mad at her. I mad at myself for being mad at her. Im mad at my dad for being such an asshole sometimes. Im mad at myself for not having a better relationship with him. Im sad about John leaving. That reminds me, I still have to figure out how Im working at Minnecis this summer. He has been one of the only stable things in my life the last year, and I would not be where I am without him. I want to be around this summer to play with him, but I just can't be home. I wonder if dad is still going on the vacation this summer. I need a car. bad. ugh. what a weekend.