help..
The HELL am i supposed to say back to this:
Kay so its like 3am....and i cant sleep AT ALL. this has been on my mind for too long. i know youve been hanging out with scott....never thought id find out hey? that night at zacks, when you said "Yeah since Scott and i NEVER talk anymore...my phone bill is WAY less money"...i knew you were lying. i can ALWAYS tell when youre lying...youd think you know that by now? funny thing, that was the night that i wanted to confront you about scott...but i was a little thrown off when you lied right to my face. so i just kept my mouth shut and went along with it. i understand that you kept this whole 'friends with scott thing' from me because you thought i woulda been mad. wouldn't you rather have just told me straight up instead of me finding out on my own? honestly...yeah i woulda been a little mad had you told me right away...but, hey, its your life - what was i going to do about it? after that night i was kind of hoping it died down, maybe even that it ended...but i was proven wrong a few days ago. so now i KNOW this has been going on for a long time...if it was such a huge deal that you had to keep it from me (AND shawna, AND courtney im assuming? havent talked to them about it) why even mess around with all that shit in the first place? is scott REALLY worth risking our friendship over? the part of all this that hurts is when i told you about him going on ryans MSN and bashing me...remember how mad you got? all the things you said about him? you didnt mean a word of it. the next time you talked to him you probably carried on as if nothing happened, didnt say a word in my defence. if he is worth the risk...then so be it. if what hes done to you (even to ME for that matter) means nothing to you..then just tell me. i mean, youre allowed to forgive him right? and as for what hes done to me...why should i drag you into all that? why should it matter to you? (im serious, not being a bitch) you CAN be friends with both of us. if his frienship is that important to you...then i'll leave this mess alone. ill carry on and pretend as if nothing's wrong. understand that i wont just walk away from our friendship at this point. i cant. he may be worth risking our friendship on your part...but hes NOT worth losing our friendship over on my part. i refuse to let him have that power. plus...i could never do that to you...we've been friends for too long. this e-mail isnt intended as a guilt trip...im just letting you know that i know. and i know you KNEW something was wrong, seeing as we havent talked in forever. you dont have to lie anymore; i found out the big secret. i apologize for how long its taken me to just tell you...but im not sorry about anything else. im not sorry for this email, im not sorry that i found out. and youre probably wondering how i DID find out, am i right? well way back when...just around the time i got bashed by scott over ryans msn...i had a conversation with craig (before him and i started fighting) and he told me that scott told him that you were going to buy scott a $500 x-mas present (some game system or some shit?)...so that kind of made things clear that you werent telling me something. and as for how i know that you two are STILL hanging out...if you wana be sneaky about the whole thing - think about going to places where i maybe WON'T see you two together. anways, im not pissed. dont have to worry about that. personally, i'm never going to be able to forgive him for what he's done to you in the past; and as far as im concerned he doesnt deserve to even have you in his life - but thats just how i feel. do me a favor...and next time? just tell me - it'll save the both of us a lot of trouble. one more thing....dont even THINK about trying to deny anything! from now on, when you talk about scott...its the truth i wana hear. cuz...frankly, you're a bad liar; and you know it. so we can cut the 'never talking' bullshit. anyways, maybe ill be able to sleep now that its...almost 4 in the morning. yaaaay. glad i finally got this out in the open. i'll talk to you later though!~
love mandy.
Kay so its like 3am....and i cant sleep AT ALL. this has been on my mind for too long. i know youve been hanging out with scott....never thought id find out hey? that night at zacks, when you said "Yeah since Scott and i NEVER talk anymore...my phone bill is WAY less money"...i knew you were lying. i can ALWAYS tell when youre lying...youd think you know that by now? funny thing, that was the night that i wanted to confront you about scott...but i was a little thrown off when you lied right to my face. so i just kept my mouth shut and went along with it. i understand that you kept this whole 'friends with scott thing' from me because you thought i woulda been mad. wouldn't you rather have just told me straight up instead of me finding out on my own? honestly...yeah i woulda been a little mad had you told me right away...but, hey, its your life - what was i going to do about it? after that night i was kind of hoping it died down, maybe even that it ended...but i was proven wrong a few days ago. so now i KNOW this has been going on for a long time...if it was such a huge deal that you had to keep it from me (AND shawna, AND courtney im assuming? havent talked to them about it) why even mess around with all that shit in the first place? is scott REALLY worth risking our friendship over? the part of all this that hurts is when i told you about him going on ryans MSN and bashing me...remember how mad you got? all the things you said about him? you didnt mean a word of it. the next time you talked to him you probably carried on as if nothing happened, didnt say a word in my defence. if he is worth the risk...then so be it. if what hes done to you (even to ME for that matter) means nothing to you..then just tell me. i mean, youre allowed to forgive him right? and as for what hes done to me...why should i drag you into all that? why should it matter to you? (im serious, not being a bitch) you CAN be friends with both of us. if his frienship is that important to you...then i'll leave this mess alone. ill carry on and pretend as if nothing's wrong. understand that i wont just walk away from our friendship at this point. i cant. he may be worth risking our friendship on your part...but hes NOT worth losing our friendship over on my part. i refuse to let him have that power. plus...i could never do that to you...we've been friends for too long. this e-mail isnt intended as a guilt trip...im just letting you know that i know. and i know you KNEW something was wrong, seeing as we havent talked in forever. you dont have to lie anymore; i found out the big secret. i apologize for how long its taken me to just tell you...but im not sorry about anything else. im not sorry for this email, im not sorry that i found out. and youre probably wondering how i DID find out, am i right? well way back when...just around the time i got bashed by scott over ryans msn...i had a conversation with craig (before him and i started fighting) and he told me that scott told him that you were going to buy scott a $500 x-mas present (some game system or some shit?)...so that kind of made things clear that you werent telling me something. and as for how i know that you two are STILL hanging out...if you wana be sneaky about the whole thing - think about going to places where i maybe WON'T see you two together. anways, im not pissed. dont have to worry about that. personally, i'm never going to be able to forgive him for what he's done to you in the past; and as far as im concerned he doesnt deserve to even have you in his life - but thats just how i feel. do me a favor...and next time? just tell me - it'll save the both of us a lot of trouble. one more thing....dont even THINK about trying to deny anything! from now on, when you talk about scott...its the truth i wana hear. cuz...frankly, you're a bad liar; and you know it. so we can cut the 'never talking' bullshit. anyways, maybe ill be able to sleep now that its...almost 4 in the morning. yaaaay. glad i finally got this out in the open. i'll talk to you later though!~
love mandy.