5 years later....
i'm apologizing for what i did wrong.
i feel sad it took me so long to do so. that it probably won't change anything for anyone. that i didn't come to this 4 1/2 yrs. ago. that i couldn't make it better along time ago. that i had so many insecurities. that i couldn't see how it hurt her. that i couldn't see how frustrated she was because everything was out of her control. that i couldn't see how he was hurting her.
i was too close to it all. i couldn't pull back and put myself in either of their shoes. i was just angry. so, now, with perspective, i see it all more clearly. i see what i did wrong, what he did wrong, and what she did wrong. we all screwed up, but for our own reasons that seemed good in the moment for each of us i'm sure.
i have apologized to them both now. and like i said, it probably won't change anything, i like to hope it will. but, i know it probably won't. Anyway - I'm sorry for how it all happened and I've learned from it and my mistakes. I'm just sorry that it took five years. I guess that my therapy has healed so much of me, that I can see things so much clearer now. A perspective I didn't have then.
i feel sad it took me so long to do so. that it probably won't change anything for anyone. that i didn't come to this 4 1/2 yrs. ago. that i couldn't make it better along time ago. that i had so many insecurities. that i couldn't see how it hurt her. that i couldn't see how frustrated she was because everything was out of her control. that i couldn't see how he was hurting her.
i was too close to it all. i couldn't pull back and put myself in either of their shoes. i was just angry. so, now, with perspective, i see it all more clearly. i see what i did wrong, what he did wrong, and what she did wrong. we all screwed up, but for our own reasons that seemed good in the moment for each of us i'm sure.
i have apologized to them both now. and like i said, it probably won't change anything, i like to hope it will. but, i know it probably won't. Anyway - I'm sorry for how it all happened and I've learned from it and my mistakes. I'm just sorry that it took five years. I guess that my therapy has healed so much of me, that I can see things so much clearer now. A perspective I didn't have then.