About my poll

Mar 12, 2007 15:22

So, about my poll.

I asked that question b/c it was brought to my attention that I might not have a normal view of exercise, due to my athletic background.

I have been having a time management problem. Since I now work 5 days instead of just 4 like I did at my old job, I find I have less time to get everything done. Matthew is being great, and we are sharing the housework more. He cooks 1-2 nights a week. This is OK, b/c I like to cook.

I hate spending all weekend cleaning, but I find we don't have enough time during the week it feels like. Well, I don't have enough time. I'm trying to make more schedules, so that I get more done on the week day, and have more time on the weekends for things I want to do.

Anyway, partly why I think I'm so tired during the week is that I spend a lot of time exercising or in transit to the gym. I currently walk to work (although when we move to our new office, I'll be riding my bike - b/c public transit is a mess over there) and take the bus home. It is 5K (3.1 miles) to my work from my home. I walk at a fast pace.

But, I don't really consider this to be enough exercise for one day. This is when my therapist pointed out, that maybe I need to spend less time exercising to have time to do other things I want. I probably looked at her like she just shot my mom. She also pointed out that maybe I don't see exercise correctly. That walking 5K is enough cardiovascular exercise for one day.

But, she added up how much time I spend exercising in one week, and well, it is a lot. So, she did have a point. So, I went home to think about it all.

So, hence why I asked the poll. I don't really have a normal view of exercise, since I ran track for 10 yrs. and saw nothing abnormal w/running twice a day. So, that's why I wanted to ask other people what they thought.

I had already decided to cut back on my exercising. I need to be done with exercising by 6:30, so I can get on to other things with my day. I'm not just healthy - I'm in shape. I'm in pretty good shape too. I need to see that. So, thanks to all of you who answered. You just reinforced my therapist's point. So, I've come up with a new exercise plan to do more exercising at home and not go to the gym b/c it takes me 40 mins. to get there (I go to the gym at Matthew's work). I feel like my new plan is a good one, and it will save me 2 hrs. during the work week.

Hopefully this will give me more energy for other things. I miss doing some of the things I love.
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This leads me to my next part of this post.

I go to therapy. I'm not depressed. I have anxiety issues. Although, at this point, I'm rarely anxious. I feel like my anxiety is in good control. I'm just dealing with some lingering emotional baggage. Some days I feel like I'm a mess. But then I realize, I'm not at all. I'm dealing with all my baggage and actually very happy. I'm identifying my problems and working on them. I'm not embarrassed I go to therapy. I don't think it will be for much longer, b/c it is going well and I'm feeling closer to the end.

Anyway, I sometimes think people think I'm completely damaged b/c I seek therapy. No, I just had some rough patches in life and I inherited anxiety, not much I can do about that. I actually have had a really good life. I have two parents who have always loved me a lot. My mom had problems with depression and anxiety while I was growing up, which definitely affected me. My dad traveled a lot, so there was another factor. But, did I have a generally good childhood? Yes. My parents took us all over the place for track meets. They always supported any interests we had. They took us on interesting vacations. They spent lots of time with us. They encouraged us at school. They gave my sister and I a very wonderful life. My teenage years kind of sucked, but so much was going on then. And sure, that time is a lot of why I do therapy. But, in comparison to most people - I have had a really good life. I have had a very happy life. I have a wonderful family.

I'm not afraid to admit that I go to therapy, but I guess I feel like some people regard me differently after I do. As if I'm this sad little person. Or like I'm completely screwed up.

I'm neither. I'm getting my shit together. I'm just dealing with some lingering issues so that I can spend the rest of my life being happy. And also my childhood has no bearing on how I feel about having children myself. Because my childhood was happy. My parents took us on awesome, interesting vacations (and went into debt for it). When I was very little, they threw me into bed every night (i loved this), and read me the same book every night, because I demanded it. My dad played a game with me every single night when he got home from work. I have more good memories than I count.

Moving to Georgia was not a good thing for anyone in my family really. But, maybe it is something we all had to go through. We all bear our own scars from it, and I think we've all come out as stronger, better people. I'm definitely closer with my parents than I've ever been and my sister and I have the best relationship we've ever had.

I feel so lucky for everything I have had in life and everything I've gotten to do. You know, if I do decide to have a child one day, I will have a great role models to go from.

So, if you know someone who goes to therapy, don't think that there is something wrong with them, think about how smart they are and how brave, because they are smart enough to go deal with their emotional baggage and take care of their issues, instead of ignoring them. They are taking good care of their mental health - which is just as important as physical health. Just think of all the people you know who could use some therapy. Yeah. If we all took better care of our brains, this world would definitely be a happier place.
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