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on sunday my best friend's mom died. she had lung cancer since may of last year, and her death was completely unexpected, especially so soon. i used to stay at their house every time my mom went on buisness trips for weeks at a time for the better part of 8 years. amanda and i always said that her mom was my second mom and my mom was hers. really, after my pop pop's passing this summer i am not prepared for this. the past two days have been awful. i'm glad at least that i'll be able to hug my mom tomorrow and sleep with my soft, sweet smelling little dog (she just got groomed last week).
also, i scalded my finger a bit testing my iron today. i love that tough dead feeling of almost burnt skin.
lately i am incredibly lonely. it's like i have this idea that i'm close to people but half the time they really don't need me. the two people i'm closest to lately have been seeking new friends, so much so that i'm here alone before leaving for two days to do one of the hardest things i've had to do yet. since this summer at least.
also, i scalded my finger a bit testing my iron today. i love that tough dead feeling of almost burnt skin.
lately i am incredibly lonely. it's like i have this idea that i'm close to people but half the time they really don't need me. the two people i'm closest to lately have been seeking new friends, so much so that i'm here alone before leaving for two days to do one of the hardest things i've had to do yet. since this summer at least.