i saw him look away

[tastethecream]

i saw him look away woz the last thing that happened, i cant live, i cant breathe without him. Why is my love driving me insane, im going away tomoz with 2 mates on holiday and he doesnt want me to go. He has been sad all day i try to comfort him and i got nothing from him, i cried because i was sad coz i made him sad and he didnt even hug me, im so convinced he is going off me, he says he loves me and he wants to marry me and be with me forever but yet he can get so sad and let me slip away from his grip. When i look into his eyes i see a broken soul with many problems and lots of anxiety. I love him, i just cannoot understand, how inside his head works out. He loves me i love him but we both have extreme mood swings, we try not to take it out onto eachother but its so damn hard its just not acheivable. why is he letting me slip, i cant let him i swear.
He seems to fade off into the distance as time is slowly moving on, i dont think i can actually manage life without him, i really cant but yet im too sure that he can give up on me and ditch me with the snap of his fingers and enjoy not being with me. Why is he so broken, i dont think im good for him, i hurt his life i really do, my burning desire to be loved is forfiilled by him. I enjoy being sad but with him, i dont. When im around him i love to be happy and enjoy life to its fullest. I just wish i could explain my inner thoughts and feelings to him to make him understand to make him keep interest in me. To make him love me forever