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So I haven't updated in awhile. I thought I should while I was at home. I'm almost completely moved out. Cool. That's a relief. Buuut...
My thoughts are so jumbled together these days. I can't seperate one from the other. I'm tired of seeing all my friends turn into "puppets" (to quote my Missa, whom I love because she would never let some guy turn her into a puppet) but anyways, I'm tired of seeing them turn into puppets that belong to some guy. Example: Jessica and Mickey. Amy and Jeremy. *Audrey, I hear you got a new boyfriend, please don't let him mold you into something that you don't want to be. And always remember that your friends should be most important :) I love you!* Anyways... apparently Mickey told Jessica that she had to choose between him and Ryan. Guess who she picked? If you knew the previous her, you would say Ryan, but then you would be wrong. She picked Mickey, which is of course no shocker. Mickey and I get along just fine, so I don't have to worry about something like that happening to me. But the fact that she picked him over Ryan pisses me off anyways. I'm not sure if I want to be friends with somebody like that. But... I figure that sooner or later she won't have anyone but herself and Mickey, and her cats. And then Mickey will dump her or she'll dump him. Then she'll be all alone with her cats and maybe she'll learn that she can't walk all over people and expect them to come running back to her. I love her to pieces, but she's blinded by a guy. Now on Amy... "I would never cheat on Jeremy even if he cheated on me. I wouldn't break up with him even if he cheated on me. I love him so much." It literally makes me want to gag. WTF is wrong with girls these days?!?! I can't stand it! LIFE GOES ON WITHOUT A GUY. AHHH! Girls are becoming nothing more than mindless drones, used as sex objects. Well, not me. I would never let a guy walk all over me like that or tell me what to do or who to see or anything. If they don't like me for ME, then FUCK OFF! heh.. Amy told me that Spafford is obsessed with me and always asking "Where is Chronica? What's she up to? Why haven't I seen her? You should call her." and stuff. She thinks he likes me. Which is cool, I love Spafford. Out of all the guys I know, he is probably one of the most nicest and funnest. Snaps for him. But all that... I hope I don't feel weird next time I hang out with him. I probably won't though... I never feel weird around him. He's cool... I wonder if my bubby knows. On that... I miss my bubby. I haven't got to see him as much lately, he's my best friend. :( Him and Missa bear. This is such a long post, but I'm not even done yet. heh.
So on Saturday the gang went to Lawrence. It was fun. Chipotle was gooood. Annnnnd.... *drumroll* on Feb 6 and 7 I believe, we will be going back. Why you ask? *another drumroll* ROCKY HORROR PICTURE SHOW will be there. Performed on stage with people dressed up and everything, just like you see on teevee. We are going!! I'm so excited! It's going to be so much fun, especially with all the people that you love there. It's going to be the highlight of my year, I bet. I wish I knew when Manson is SUPPOSED to be coming back, but I for some reason don't think he is. Whatever. Piece of shit. Anywho... I made Hector mad at me. Whoops. We were in the car... I was in the middle of a sentence... he says "So when are you gonna let me hit it?" and I jerked my head towards him and was like NEVER! heh I didn't mean to say that, I meant to pause and think of something smart ass to say, but the word just flew from my mouth at lightning speed. I hate guys who say shit like that anyways so oh well. Besides, I don't want to sleep with him after he went around and told everyone "we haven't fucked yet but I've gotten around some bases with her". I'm not a fucking trophy and I don't like when guys brag about me and themselves. Fuck off. But on the otherhand, I do think I like somebody, again. That's your hint as to who it is, somebody I have previously liked. Liked a lot. When I hang out with him, it's old times all over again, everythings perfect. But when I'm not with him I can think a little more rationally and remember all the shit that happened that ruined those perfect times in the first place. I don't want a repeat. Because, to be truthfully honest, I think that's the one thing I can't handle right now, a repeat of what happened last time. I guess all I can do is hope for the best and try to work everything out into the way that I want it. But if things fuck up, then hey, I'm still good! Bounce back from everything. This is so long because I haven't posted much lately, but oh well. I spend more time writing in my notebook than here, because nobody can ever read my notebook. Nobody, ever. It's my sanctuary, and besides, I don't think most people could handle all the truth that is written in it. Because well, most people can't handle the truth anyways. I'm going to finish eating my Lion King animal crackers now, ciao.
-Chronica-
My thoughts are so jumbled together these days. I can't seperate one from the other. I'm tired of seeing all my friends turn into "puppets" (to quote my Missa, whom I love because she would never let some guy turn her into a puppet) but anyways, I'm tired of seeing them turn into puppets that belong to some guy. Example: Jessica and Mickey. Amy and Jeremy. *Audrey, I hear you got a new boyfriend, please don't let him mold you into something that you don't want to be. And always remember that your friends should be most important :) I love you!* Anyways... apparently Mickey told Jessica that she had to choose between him and Ryan. Guess who she picked? If you knew the previous her, you would say Ryan, but then you would be wrong. She picked Mickey, which is of course no shocker. Mickey and I get along just fine, so I don't have to worry about something like that happening to me. But the fact that she picked him over Ryan pisses me off anyways. I'm not sure if I want to be friends with somebody like that. But... I figure that sooner or later she won't have anyone but herself and Mickey, and her cats. And then Mickey will dump her or she'll dump him. Then she'll be all alone with her cats and maybe she'll learn that she can't walk all over people and expect them to come running back to her. I love her to pieces, but she's blinded by a guy. Now on Amy... "I would never cheat on Jeremy even if he cheated on me. I wouldn't break up with him even if he cheated on me. I love him so much." It literally makes me want to gag. WTF is wrong with girls these days?!?! I can't stand it! LIFE GOES ON WITHOUT A GUY. AHHH! Girls are becoming nothing more than mindless drones, used as sex objects. Well, not me. I would never let a guy walk all over me like that or tell me what to do or who to see or anything. If they don't like me for ME, then FUCK OFF! heh.. Amy told me that Spafford is obsessed with me and always asking "Where is Chronica? What's she up to? Why haven't I seen her? You should call her." and stuff. She thinks he likes me. Which is cool, I love Spafford. Out of all the guys I know, he is probably one of the most nicest and funnest. Snaps for him. But all that... I hope I don't feel weird next time I hang out with him. I probably won't though... I never feel weird around him. He's cool... I wonder if my bubby knows. On that... I miss my bubby. I haven't got to see him as much lately, he's my best friend. :( Him and Missa bear. This is such a long post, but I'm not even done yet. heh.
So on Saturday the gang went to Lawrence. It was fun. Chipotle was gooood. Annnnnd.... *drumroll* on Feb 6 and 7 I believe, we will be going back. Why you ask? *another drumroll* ROCKY HORROR PICTURE SHOW will be there. Performed on stage with people dressed up and everything, just like you see on teevee. We are going!! I'm so excited! It's going to be so much fun, especially with all the people that you love there. It's going to be the highlight of my year, I bet. I wish I knew when Manson is SUPPOSED to be coming back, but I for some reason don't think he is. Whatever. Piece of shit. Anywho... I made Hector mad at me. Whoops. We were in the car... I was in the middle of a sentence... he says "So when are you gonna let me hit it?" and I jerked my head towards him and was like NEVER! heh I didn't mean to say that, I meant to pause and think of something smart ass to say, but the word just flew from my mouth at lightning speed. I hate guys who say shit like that anyways so oh well. Besides, I don't want to sleep with him after he went around and told everyone "we haven't fucked yet but I've gotten around some bases with her". I'm not a fucking trophy and I don't like when guys brag about me and themselves. Fuck off. But on the otherhand, I do think I like somebody, again. That's your hint as to who it is, somebody I have previously liked. Liked a lot. When I hang out with him, it's old times all over again, everythings perfect. But when I'm not with him I can think a little more rationally and remember all the shit that happened that ruined those perfect times in the first place. I don't want a repeat. Because, to be truthfully honest, I think that's the one thing I can't handle right now, a repeat of what happened last time. I guess all I can do is hope for the best and try to work everything out into the way that I want it. But if things fuck up, then hey, I'm still good! Bounce back from everything. This is so long because I haven't posted much lately, but oh well. I spend more time writing in my notebook than here, because nobody can ever read my notebook. Nobody, ever. It's my sanctuary, and besides, I don't think most people could handle all the truth that is written in it. Because well, most people can't handle the truth anyways. I'm going to finish eating my Lion King animal crackers now, ciao.
-Chronica-