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upon looking over some of my past entries, i have realized that i usually post about things that are bothering me. i sincerely believe that the reocurring dilemmas will not be sorted out until i leave for san francisco in august. so basically i need to start focusing on more positive things that are happening in my life. i need to stop trying to change things that i have no ability to alter. it seems so simple.
when i think about it, i am quite content with my life at the present moment. i have a job that i (surprisingly) love. i don't mind working 30+ hours a week. hell, i even asked mike, my manager, if i could close every week night & just have fridays & saturdays off. it's not like i do anything productive or exciting on week nights anyway. i am also very glad that i am starting to reconnect with some of the girls that i was really close with during my years at grossmont. i have been hanging out with megan especially & i'm really happy that we can still have just as much fun as we used to. on the other hand, i noticed that i & another old friend of mine have grown far apart. i've tried to sort this out numerous times & eventually just let this certain person control the situation. & it really sucks when they make no effort at all. but i can't help people for changing & if this person is happy with their life without me, then so be it. (i know i was only going to talk about positive things but...oops). i finally decided on Environmental Studies as a major & i really feel that it is going to work out perfectly for me. & the peace corps after graduation won't hurt either. ohhhh & i just remembered that i got a $2520 Cal Grant this weekend. it's not much but i know it will help. let's see...what else am i happy about?? i got my new mp3 player on friday. my family & i are going on a cruise for spring break (cozumel & key west because the bahamas was booked). my hair is finally getting longer. i have become a lot stronger as a person in this past year & i feel as though i can take almost anything. this list could really go on forever.
i don't want any negativity in my life
so if that is what you're all about
I DON'T NEED YOU.
i turn 18 tomorrow. damn.
oh & grey's anatomy is my new favorite.
good night.
when i think about it, i am quite content with my life at the present moment. i have a job that i (surprisingly) love. i don't mind working 30+ hours a week. hell, i even asked mike, my manager, if i could close every week night & just have fridays & saturdays off. it's not like i do anything productive or exciting on week nights anyway. i am also very glad that i am starting to reconnect with some of the girls that i was really close with during my years at grossmont. i have been hanging out with megan especially & i'm really happy that we can still have just as much fun as we used to. on the other hand, i noticed that i & another old friend of mine have grown far apart. i've tried to sort this out numerous times & eventually just let this certain person control the situation. & it really sucks when they make no effort at all. but i can't help people for changing & if this person is happy with their life without me, then so be it. (i know i was only going to talk about positive things but...oops). i finally decided on Environmental Studies as a major & i really feel that it is going to work out perfectly for me. & the peace corps after graduation won't hurt either. ohhhh & i just remembered that i got a $2520 Cal Grant this weekend. it's not much but i know it will help. let's see...what else am i happy about?? i got my new mp3 player on friday. my family & i are going on a cruise for spring break (cozumel & key west because the bahamas was booked). my hair is finally getting longer. i have become a lot stronger as a person in this past year & i feel as though i can take almost anything. this list could really go on forever.
i don't want any negativity in my life
so if that is what you're all about
I DON'T NEED YOU.
i turn 18 tomorrow. damn.
oh & grey's anatomy is my new favorite.
good night.