i have fallen and cant get back up
sooo much stuff is going on right now and i dont know how to express myself yea i have pleanty of ppl to talk to but i just cant, no i dont know how to. i never really told anybody anything well i tell ppl things but its not the hole thing or ill not tell them how i really feel i have never really been this confused.
sitting here trying to write what i feel i know what i want to write but i cant write it things are sooo shitty i dont know what to do
i hate knowing that the one person you want you wont get! and that my parents put me down more than anyone that is part of my life! and that i cant tell someone how i feel about them but i can tell everyone else how feel about him! and i hate that the one person i really truly loved and made me feel special for once fell in love with my best friend! i hate feeling unloved and unwanted! and i hate that all of my friends arent my friends anymore! and i hate all of these feelings and i hate how all of you are prolly like your life could be worse and you should just stop complaining becca! well right now i dont think i have ever felt this low/sad/lonley/depressed/unwanted/unloved in my life!
it feels like i have fallen into this deep hole and i cant get back up i just want to go away and get away from it all and that prolly wont even help it will just make everything worse i dont understand why everything has to be hard cant just one thing in life be easy? or would that make life to easy?
I'm trying to keep it together
But I'm falling apart
sombody help me