lonely..
im so depressed..i feel so incredibly alone..it hurts so fucking much to just watch your best friend slip away from you and they don't even notice..thats of course because theyre too caught up in themselves to even realize what theyre doing to you...
so heres my expliantion of things...
for the past 8 or 9 months it started happeneing..i could tell it wasnt going to be long before i didnt have a best friend any more..i swear..and ive counted..ive invited my "best friend" to 25 concerts with me...she either made up the lamest of all excuses..something SUDDENLY came up or she just blatantly said she didnt want to go..and after awhile i started getting used to hearing no so i said "i know you're going to decline my offer but im asking you anyway because youre my best friend and i want to hang out with you other places then the mall every 5 months..but im not depending on you to go anymore since youve screwed me out of plans every other fucking time i ask you to do something" and she laughed..thinking i was joking...does that sound like i was joking? shes a fucking idiot..thats all i need to say..
she is so completely caught up in herself and her love for this guy from Scotland shes been talking to for a year now that she claims she loves..how pathetic? i cant even begin to count the times i almost started laughing because of it..but thats just her..
and whats sad is..i still keep asking her to do stuff with me..
"hey do you wanna go to the mall later on tonight?"
"SURE!"
.....the next day.....
"wow the mall was fun! oh wait..we never went because YOU NEVER CALLED ME"
***INSERT LAME EXCUSE OF HERS HERE***
im just so sick of it..i felt alone when i WAS best friends with her and now..i dont even know what the hell to do with myself..shes making all these plans to go to concerts with other people i talk to but she couldnt ever go with me?
i fucking hate her...i really do...
and i hate feeling so alone..i honestly dont have any friends now..no one wants to hang out with me ever..i get judged by everyone else so that leaves me with..let me count...ME.
someone please post on here..my LJ is going to hell cause i dont even have friends online that will post on it..
ugh i suck...
the end.
so heres my expliantion of things...
for the past 8 or 9 months it started happeneing..i could tell it wasnt going to be long before i didnt have a best friend any more..i swear..and ive counted..ive invited my "best friend" to 25 concerts with me...she either made up the lamest of all excuses..something SUDDENLY came up or she just blatantly said she didnt want to go..and after awhile i started getting used to hearing no so i said "i know you're going to decline my offer but im asking you anyway because youre my best friend and i want to hang out with you other places then the mall every 5 months..but im not depending on you to go anymore since youve screwed me out of plans every other fucking time i ask you to do something" and she laughed..thinking i was joking...does that sound like i was joking? shes a fucking idiot..thats all i need to say..
she is so completely caught up in herself and her love for this guy from Scotland shes been talking to for a year now that she claims she loves..how pathetic? i cant even begin to count the times i almost started laughing because of it..but thats just her..
and whats sad is..i still keep asking her to do stuff with me..
"hey do you wanna go to the mall later on tonight?"
"SURE!"
.....the next day.....
"wow the mall was fun! oh wait..we never went because YOU NEVER CALLED ME"
***INSERT LAME EXCUSE OF HERS HERE***
im just so sick of it..i felt alone when i WAS best friends with her and now..i dont even know what the hell to do with myself..shes making all these plans to go to concerts with other people i talk to but she couldnt ever go with me?
i fucking hate her...i really do...
and i hate feeling so alone..i honestly dont have any friends now..no one wants to hang out with me ever..i get judged by everyone else so that leaves me with..let me count...ME.
someone please post on here..my LJ is going to hell cause i dont even have friends online that will post on it..
ugh i suck...
the end.