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so im thinkin about 99% of you deleted me from your friends list because i havent updated this worthless LJ in the longest time..and i keep saying im gonna daily update you but i dont cause i suck.
but im gonna update you on what has been hapening since the last time i posted..which isnt much so here goes..
i know there was like a million different people i said i liked all the time..different friends and such because i didnt know how to sort out my feelings between them all..so i finally, however, figured everything out..my friend that i know from school that i probably most recently said something about me liking..i realized i dont. he's just..awsome. he's such a super nice person and he cares so much about everyone else and their feelings..and he has this big big crush on my best friend but what he doesnt realize is that shes not into him and shes into this guy who lives across seas like 3000 frickin miles away and she doesnt want anyone but him. and it pains me to go through the daily process of him looking at her with such fondness in his eyes while she rambles on incessently about this long distance relationship she wants to figure a way to work out. i want to help my friend so much and just tell him he deserves so much more than her but that will end up getting everyone mad at me for saying shit. its better that he realizes it on his own anyway.
onto the second guy..the 19 year old that my parents didnt even want me to be friends with..wow..well..next weekend is a show he's supposed to be driving me and my friend to so we can all hang out..which is most likely not going to happen. the male gender totally sucks. he makes no sense at all..every day i talk to him he constantly hints to me that he likes me..and everyone knows that..but then his "friend" tracy that he talks to and hangs out with he's always telling her he loves her and its hard to be away from her but he'll go right back and flirt with me again. and at the moment he's totally ignoring me..which i dont understand at all..so im ready to call off this whole show next friday and just get a different ride there. i dont want or need rather..something to leave me confused at right now. its the last of my problems. i just wish he would figure himself out.
im still depressed..but not so much right now. im doing good in school..this is the first time since 5th grade im going to get Honor Roll..which makes my parents so incredibly proud of me..which makes me happy. my ex is still talking about me..which is always fun to know ive ruined him for life -evil laugh-. my friends are all right..ive been hanging out alot with my friend who i would never have thought id bond with so well..and its safe but sad to say she's a better friend to me than my "best friend" is. so at this moment..besides the dumbass guy issue..all is well in megan land haha. that was corny.
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P.S--- VOTE IN THE POETRY COMPETITION ON NAPTOWN!!!!!!
P.P.S--im going to see Bowling For Soup Monday with my cousin..should be interesting..and strange enough..my DAD is begging me to go with him to see Marilyn Manson. i think i just might take up his offer. =]
but im gonna update you on what has been hapening since the last time i posted..which isnt much so here goes..
i know there was like a million different people i said i liked all the time..different friends and such because i didnt know how to sort out my feelings between them all..so i finally, however, figured everything out..my friend that i know from school that i probably most recently said something about me liking..i realized i dont. he's just..awsome. he's such a super nice person and he cares so much about everyone else and their feelings..and he has this big big crush on my best friend but what he doesnt realize is that shes not into him and shes into this guy who lives across seas like 3000 frickin miles away and she doesnt want anyone but him. and it pains me to go through the daily process of him looking at her with such fondness in his eyes while she rambles on incessently about this long distance relationship she wants to figure a way to work out. i want to help my friend so much and just tell him he deserves so much more than her but that will end up getting everyone mad at me for saying shit. its better that he realizes it on his own anyway.
onto the second guy..the 19 year old that my parents didnt even want me to be friends with..wow..well..next weekend is a show he's supposed to be driving me and my friend to so we can all hang out..which is most likely not going to happen. the male gender totally sucks. he makes no sense at all..every day i talk to him he constantly hints to me that he likes me..and everyone knows that..but then his "friend" tracy that he talks to and hangs out with he's always telling her he loves her and its hard to be away from her but he'll go right back and flirt with me again. and at the moment he's totally ignoring me..which i dont understand at all..so im ready to call off this whole show next friday and just get a different ride there. i dont want or need rather..something to leave me confused at right now. its the last of my problems. i just wish he would figure himself out.
im still depressed..but not so much right now. im doing good in school..this is the first time since 5th grade im going to get Honor Roll..which makes my parents so incredibly proud of me..which makes me happy. my ex is still talking about me..which is always fun to know ive ruined him for life -evil laugh-. my friends are all right..ive been hanging out alot with my friend who i would never have thought id bond with so well..and its safe but sad to say she's a better friend to me than my "best friend" is. so at this moment..besides the dumbass guy issue..all is well in megan land haha. that was corny.
<3
P.S--- VOTE IN THE POETRY COMPETITION ON NAPTOWN!!!!!!
P.P.S--im going to see Bowling For Soup Monday with my cousin..should be interesting..and strange enough..my DAD is begging me to go with him to see Marilyn Manson. i think i just might take up his offer. =]