seconds go by....

Jul 08, 2006 20:11

damn. i fell into it aGAIN. This time, its terrifyingly real. The stuttering, the carelessness for others besides her, the motivation to get the fuck in here and write about her in the first place. Like a fright train, her horn reaches across my entire plane of exhistence....

Rapid shots of sweat
and jitters in my neck
i'm a wreck
but its the best
because it means that she's around.
Whether it be in my brain
or my entertaining imagination
she evolved into the focus
of my only concentration.
She's the generation
of why my pulse
even seems to exhist.
And the reasons
why she amazes me
go far beyond
a list.

Perhaps a test
of my effort
but i wouldn't
let her leave me now.
I've learned to fall in love
but I can't remember how.
The clouds around my room
remind me how kind reality can't be,
and serve as a feat to succeed.
For her voice,
that i desperately need.
And that feeling
inside me that feeds
on that list
i said no one could read
reminds me that i'm defeated,
given up my conscience
to live in a dream.

The places that seem real
feel different, even in touch,
like i'm a painting in a portrait
made with an old brush.
And the luscious lips i alliterate
serve teasingly inspiring
to these words I write for her
as I write them down, spiraling.
Down into her image
i keep so guarded in my mind
blinding me from what I see
making her the only thing i find.
Her name numbs my nerves
and I laugh, without breathing,
because she's a blessing from a god
that i don't even believe in.
She shapes me every day
her thought to keep my mind awake
afraid to lose it again
before I get time to make it.
But i'll break myself before I fail
another time I could die content,
because i'd waste myself to keep her here.
A promise I'll keep kept.

The rest isn't a factor
because she's with me when i'm alone.
I'm scared in this world
but in her, i've found a home.
Previous post
Up
[]