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Its so odd to be outta highschool, the friends who were there 5 days a week for years are no longer your highest priority. Already i see the miss modge that will prevail in the years to come. The things which soon will make me tell my children "highschool is the best time of your life" Ive ran into my friends already since ive been out these few short weeks, and yet already none of it feels the same. Everything seems so trivial, so unexciting. The awkwardness of seeing yourself outside of what once used to be your clique of friends. The ones you knew would eventually drift away. Yet it is happening so soon, i think its just me. The past few months ive felt isolated, alone amongst highly aquainted strangers. Strangers who for years have been my only lifeline, the ones who i have shared laughs with; yet i realize i never was part of the group. And not for lack of their joyful invitations, but for my lack of time and better judgement. And now i regret the fact that these friends whom i love will keep getting farther and farther from my grasp......and soon they will just be another faded memory.