Sigh
I’m beginning to get scared. Seniors only have like 45 days of school left. And I will
officially be a highschool graduate in 2 months. Though the road seemed long and tiring
as I was going through it, I’m now reflecting on all the fun times I’ve had since
highschool started. Its scary to think that soon, there will be no highschool. Me and my
friends will be thrust out into the real world, and suddenly there will be no time left for all
the little things we once enjoyed. I know there are some friends who will remain friends
forever. Becky and Jenn are on the top of that list. Me and Jenn plan to be roomies. And I
can count on Becks we both seem to have little direction in life except to try to have fun
when we can. I say that’s the best way to go considering you only live once. Megan is
going away in June, I’m going to miss her crazy antics. I start to wonder how and why so
many people say highschool is the best time of your life and then I dread the rest of mine.
Its all mixed emotions anymore. Yes I have had fun these four years, but I already regret
things I could have done but never did. The rest of our lives may be like this unless we
get lucky. Maybe people love highschool so much after its gone because they are all
married and have children. Child bearing seems to be the worst idea ever. Maybe one day
when I finally settle down (when I’m like forty) then I will think about having a kid. But
until then I would rather live my life for myself, my friends, God, and Brandon. Once
graduation is over I wonder what the next big goal in my life will be. I’m so confused,
life has so many twists and turns; I don’t want to run off the right road. I don’t want to be
some loser with no money that is barely scraping by. It terrifies me that maybe 3 years
from now (or maybe sooner) I might look back on these days.....and wish they never
ended
officially be a highschool graduate in 2 months. Though the road seemed long and tiring
as I was going through it, I’m now reflecting on all the fun times I’ve had since
highschool started. Its scary to think that soon, there will be no highschool. Me and my
friends will be thrust out into the real world, and suddenly there will be no time left for all
the little things we once enjoyed. I know there are some friends who will remain friends
forever. Becky and Jenn are on the top of that list. Me and Jenn plan to be roomies. And I
can count on Becks we both seem to have little direction in life except to try to have fun
when we can. I say that’s the best way to go considering you only live once. Megan is
going away in June, I’m going to miss her crazy antics. I start to wonder how and why so
many people say highschool is the best time of your life and then I dread the rest of mine.
Its all mixed emotions anymore. Yes I have had fun these four years, but I already regret
things I could have done but never did. The rest of our lives may be like this unless we
get lucky. Maybe people love highschool so much after its gone because they are all
married and have children. Child bearing seems to be the worst idea ever. Maybe one day
when I finally settle down (when I’m like forty) then I will think about having a kid. But
until then I would rather live my life for myself, my friends, God, and Brandon. Once
graduation is over I wonder what the next big goal in my life will be. I’m so confused,
life has so many twists and turns; I don’t want to run off the right road. I don’t want to be
some loser with no money that is barely scraping by. It terrifies me that maybe 3 years
from now (or maybe sooner) I might look back on these days.....and wish they never
ended