ive probably said it more than anyone
anonymous
January 16 2004, 03:22:29 UTC
u know ive never thought i deserved u and that you were always to good for me, and i know im just a fuck up, but i also know what ive lost and hate myself for it and i hate myself for everything else ive ever done in my life, everything that is except for falling in love with u, i love you more than life itself, you mean more than everything to me, and i really wish i could have just stopped and talked to you for a few minutes, i tried calling katies cell but got the number wrong and the only times ive been near the computer ive either been in a horrible mood and didnt wanna end up goin off on u for some stupid shit, even though i probably wouldnt have i was just scared that there was a chance that i would, or i was way to fuckin tired/stoned to even register for sure what was goin on. so i guess im just a fucked up loser pothead that just lost the only thing in my life that truly matters and yet u still talk to me, which makes it even worse cause i know i cant be with u right now and im gonna stop this right now cause im about to go to school and id rather not be crying at school, cause thats probably gonna happen anyways, and i dont know why im even going to school, not like im going to be able to focus on my finals or anything else besides the fact that i fucked up and we're over
ill always love you with all my heart
the biggest asshole in the world....
...CJ
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