a lot of anger..

[tastelesantacid]

i'm no where near your definition of perfection.
although i still attempt.
you point out the right way in 2 different directions.
all i can do is guess.
i'm past all the tears.
i've kept my eyes open while it rained.
i've listened to you all i could and smiled for you while in pain.
your screams tear away at me, i still hear you even when i'm in bed.
these walls don't block out all the truth.
your insults are burned into my head.
all your predictions
all your accusations
every mistake you've made,
has made me who i am today.
so i'm letting you know i've made my bed for the last time.
i've dressed your way, spoke your way and yet i still fessed up to everything i've done.
for you, i've cried my last cry.
and i'm facing who i am, this is the last time i'll run.
i'm past all the tears i've kept my eyes open while it rained.
i've listened to you all i could and smiled for you while in pain.
your screams tear away at me, i still hear you even when i'm in bed.
these walls don't block out all the truth.
your insults are burned into my head.
i've learned from all the fights.
i've slammed the door to your fist many times.
and stared into the razorblade many nights.
one day i'll be able to throw this all away.
maybe one day you'll be able to accept me.
and we'll work from there.

yep..