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i hate sharing my birthday with another holiday. all i get all day is "happy thanksgiving" which is nice and all but all i really wanna hear is "happy birthday" instead! i did have a very nice day though. spent the entire day with breanna. first with our family, then stopped by my dad's for a little while, then back to my house with donner for drinks. richie had to go a million places and didn't think i'd like being dragged around so much and not having time to see my family, so half of it was spent without him. i guess i don't have any complaints about it that anyone could change. it scares me getting older. i don't know what i want for my 2nd half of my 20's. richie and i talked about it for a long time last night before bed. i don't have any real goals other than that i want to travel a lot and see places i've never seen. but that's never changed. getting older always makes me question what i'm doing and what i want to be doing, and how long i can really go on the way i am. should i be advancing, or should i be staying where i know is comfortable? is staying in one place not advancing? i don't know, i just don't know what to think or do with life anymore.
oh and nick has been missing for a good 3 weeks to a month. not just disappeared as in not talking to us. but disappeared like all of his stuff is still at the place he's staying, but he isn't. the guy he's living with called richie a while ago and told him he hadn't seen or heard from him and wondered if we did. he doesn't have a cell phone and there's no real leads. our only options are: in jail (but he would have called *someone*), back to ohio with his family (again, he would have called someone and brought his clothes), back on drugs (but where? and he would have brought his stuff), or lying dead in a ditch somewhere. we don't know what to do. yes, we did tell him that if he fucked up and got back on drugs not to ever contact us again. but he would have contacted someone. he hasn't signed on his myspace since the beginning of november. other times he "ran away" and didn't tell us where he was going he always kept on there. he also had plans with us and with heather and mike for days following his last phone calls. i'm really worried.
oh and nick has been missing for a good 3 weeks to a month. not just disappeared as in not talking to us. but disappeared like all of his stuff is still at the place he's staying, but he isn't. the guy he's living with called richie a while ago and told him he hadn't seen or heard from him and wondered if we did. he doesn't have a cell phone and there's no real leads. our only options are: in jail (but he would have called *someone*), back to ohio with his family (again, he would have called someone and brought his clothes), back on drugs (but where? and he would have brought his stuff), or lying dead in a ditch somewhere. we don't know what to do. yes, we did tell him that if he fucked up and got back on drugs not to ever contact us again. but he would have contacted someone. he hasn't signed on his myspace since the beginning of november. other times he "ran away" and didn't tell us where he was going he always kept on there. he also had plans with us and with heather and mike for days following his last phone calls. i'm really worried.