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I know I said that I wasn't gonna write for a couple days but something inside me just has to get out.
There is a million things inside me right now.
I went to a party and 2 chicks wanted to get with me. they weren't bad looking or anything but for a reason i didn't. I drank so much.
But now I wonder.....what the fuck am I here to do? Why is anybody here. Right now my "train of thought" is in typing the first thing that comes to my mind. a scratch on the ear?
maybe just maybe I could have drank myself to insanity but merely an illusion of think-ing that I am insane. Could I be sane and only think about the future of myself when I am sitting still not wondering anything at all. When I was walking aroud the party I felt as if I was walking normally seeing things as if they were being played in front of me. A movie, perhaps, the movie of my life? but as i go on the people all new me.
I didn't know half the people there. I am famous.
but famouse people beat the fuck out of their own heads as to where a killer kills to have a sexual rage. M. Myers from Halloween was sexually attracted to his sister as well as I would be to my enemys/ I have come to relize that I have a NEW INSANITY. one that is not known but forbidden to be accuse of having.
I believe I am insane, I believe that I would kill. Something inside me tells me that I am going to die.
Do you know that some people have direction? I do not have this. When I walk outside i do not know what way leads anywhere. I am the only person who has this. something in my brain tells me that i AM SANE but I'm relaly not. I am the most fucked up person anyone could ever have known/. one day I will prove to everyone that i will fuck things up and hopefully the end extinction of the human race will be in my hands. and i promis e i will not let everybody down. we shall all die together. byu my hand the almighty rhitous. i fucking hate life and i know people can be with me on that comment. in fact! i will destroy myslef tonight....I will see you all in the after life where we have a sixth sense of beings.
first let me tell you how i am going to off myself.
first i am going to take a knifef from my kitchen droor and slit my wrists (both of them) while listening to the best song that i ever wrote, (40 ounce life) then i will think of all my friends and wish i could become my dreams.
it will be glorious.
i will finally have my destiny forfilled.
i love, love.
There is a million things inside me right now.
I went to a party and 2 chicks wanted to get with me. they weren't bad looking or anything but for a reason i didn't. I drank so much.
But now I wonder.....what the fuck am I here to do? Why is anybody here. Right now my "train of thought" is in typing the first thing that comes to my mind. a scratch on the ear?
maybe just maybe I could have drank myself to insanity but merely an illusion of think-ing that I am insane. Could I be sane and only think about the future of myself when I am sitting still not wondering anything at all. When I was walking aroud the party I felt as if I was walking normally seeing things as if they were being played in front of me. A movie, perhaps, the movie of my life? but as i go on the people all new me.
I didn't know half the people there. I am famous.
but famouse people beat the fuck out of their own heads as to where a killer kills to have a sexual rage. M. Myers from Halloween was sexually attracted to his sister as well as I would be to my enemys/ I have come to relize that I have a NEW INSANITY. one that is not known but forbidden to be accuse of having.
I believe I am insane, I believe that I would kill. Something inside me tells me that I am going to die.
Do you know that some people have direction? I do not have this. When I walk outside i do not know what way leads anywhere. I am the only person who has this. something in my brain tells me that i AM SANE but I'm relaly not. I am the most fucked up person anyone could ever have known/. one day I will prove to everyone that i will fuck things up and hopefully the end extinction of the human race will be in my hands. and i promis e i will not let everybody down. we shall all die together. byu my hand the almighty rhitous. i fucking hate life and i know people can be with me on that comment. in fact! i will destroy myslef tonight....I will see you all in the after life where we have a sixth sense of beings.
first let me tell you how i am going to off myself.
first i am going to take a knifef from my kitchen droor and slit my wrists (both of them) while listening to the best song that i ever wrote, (40 ounce life) then i will think of all my friends and wish i could become my dreams.
it will be glorious.
i will finally have my destiny forfilled.
i love, love.