And so here it comes again ...

[tastefromheaven]

What's wrong with me you guys? Since summer before sophomore year until now. I have never been able to let go completely. No matter what. Something goes wrong with a guy, I think of him. When I'm with a guy, I think of him. When I'm lonely, I wish he was there. I guess it's just one of the symptoms of a first love. I always wonder, "What it would be like if he didn't screw me over and if I didn't hella fucked up?" He was able to move on just fine. Heck, he lasted and found another love. Me, I was just constantly busy gettin' hurt or hurting someone. I feel bad about prom. Part of the reason was because James pissed me of and annoyed me. As I think about it, the main reason he made me feel that way was because I have always imagined my prom differently. Honestly, I imagined it with Henry. Having a wonderful, romantic, fun, night with him. Funny huh? How stupid of me. Too many movies for Kat. Haha. But I guess that my night wasn't half as bad because somehow, we were both at the same beach at 2 in the morning. Haha. What's up with that? Then somehow, I ended up spending the night at his house. Haha. I only slept for 30 minutes. Other than that I was pretty much up all night and day thinking about the moment, or hours. Lol. It was almost a dream come true in a way. Better than nothing right? Dino thinks that we were "meant to be." Him always being there when I'm having the worst night of my life. Sometimes even unplanned and uncalled for. Whatever happens happen though right? Right. Please tell me it's right. No, I can't just let it be like that. But what else can I do? I can't express my feelings because he still loves her. I can't do anything. *Sigh*

Okay, I guess I just needed to let it out somewhere because I just feel so uncomfortable sharing my feelings with everyone now.