Death Week of death year

[tasteetriceps]

First, i returned home from the Sasha + Digweed show with that skull radiance of an acid trip. A giant gorgeous club is a stupid place to dose, especially when they won't let you out for air if you want to come back in, but also because the general state of overwhelm and mild nausea only gets amped when the DJs set a new record for loud and i (

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[hiphopdiary]

i got up to the part about zoe and had to stop reading. i am soooooo sorry, so so sorry.

[tasteetriceps]

Thank you--i'm always touched by other people's empathy about this. I was amazed to see the outpouring of emotion from other people, for me and for love of the doglet.

Been thinking of you--i hope you're well. xo

[hiphopdiary]

i am well. all it needs to do is warm up here and stop raining!!!

[lubaya]

Karli, this entry made me weep. I am so sorry for your loss, but so impressed with the lessons you've come away with. I admire that so much. I hope we can talk more soon.

Do you have skype?

[tasteetriceps]

Oh hi! I didn't know who this was till i logged in and saw the picture. I love you.

Thank you. For an irreversible turn of fate, the whole thing has been rife with weird blessing--i mean, i am totally surprised.

I do have Skype, but i have never actually used it. Do i have to have a number or something to let you know when i'm signed on?

[klingrap]

I've been holding in some tears at nothing in particular today and this finally brought them out. I'm so sorry - it's awful losing a pet. Even though you learn things, even though you move on, it's still awful. I admire your perseverance. Keep being you, it seems to work for you.

[tasteetriceps]

It is really sad. But i guess i just accept the indiscriminate embrace of death, more than i realised--i wouldn't have expected this lack of long grieving.

Which is certainly not to say i don't miss her. I haven't gone hiking in over a month--that was our thing, never just mine for as long as i've lived in hikeable places; i haven't ventured yet to see how i'll fare without her. There was no fun like throwing sticks for that little dog, no cuddler like her, no peace like sitting under a tree in the snow with her running up for a scratch and some love. There is no dog-dance on earth quite like hers, maybe

[pene]

thinking of you. hope the country retains all its beauty.

[tasteetriceps]

Thank you. It's not quite as sweet without the ratkin, but i'm still content out there. Today i noticed a dozen or more baby geese walking around the pond with their parents, whom i hadn't even realised were making children. Wow.