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Damn it... I just finished watching “One Piece” episode 312 and I ended up crying, I don’t want to be a spoiler because friends who see “One Piece” read these journal entries, so I have to swallow everything. And believe me, “One Piece” is the only and I mean, only anime that made me cry like a sissy girl xDD actually like about 6 to 7 times, maybe more, don’t remember, and don’t want to, because I know I’d cry again.
So, yesterday I was sick, I felt so sick that I didn’t even want to go to work, so I called early saying I won’t go, and forgot to get the hours I work for today. The day was a bit relaxing; at least some well deserved vacations xDD but a bit boring, Jose Luis passed by (some know him as Uesugi or RulerofHonnor) with his kindergarten girlfriend Kathy (my best friend too; she’s not kindergarten but we piss JL with that) because Kathy’s grandmother was at the doctor for her monthly check-up. I showed JL some stuff I found for his paladin in Diablo 2, and showed him how awesome my necromancer is (lvl 22, one clay golem, one blood golem, 4 skeletons and 3 mage skeletons; one skeleton is stronger than me, imagine 7 xDD) then both of them, Kathy and JL, played Paper Mario while I was bored as hell (don’t like that game, but I loved Zelda: Wind Waker) after a similar scene as the time Stewie imagined Peter is going to show him a Jack-in-the-Box, they left, don’t know why, I never get bored when JL is hear or even Kathy, maybe it was because they where both here at the same time... yeah, maybe that was it.
Then, I finished watching “Avatar: The Last Air bender” well, at least at the part they stopped making more episodes: Book 2 Chapter 20. Went to sleep, yup, a bit more relaxed, slept better than those other nights I sleep after working and taking a shower.
Woke up today, at 1:43 pm, called my work and asked at what hour I work, so to know if I’d go at 3 or 4, and they told me, you were supposed to work at 10 am today. 0.0” shit... two days straight without working, it was a super vacation xDD usually I don’t get a free day, because if I’m not working, I’m studying, if I’m not doing any of those two, I’d be in a hospital sick or 5 to 6 feet below the ground dead xDD
I hate it when my dad lies, before yesterday, when I went to work, my car had engine problems, why? Well, remember my last journal entry, when I said that Miguel drove my car, well, he did, but there where two occasions that there was a bump on the road, to let water pass to the sewers, well he took it too fast and the lower part of the car hit strongly. Thought it wasn’t something to look over. When I went to work the other day, the car was running unusually, at a stop light, the car didn’t want to run, so I stepped on the gas, then the brakes and then fast on the gas, it ran. But when I got to my work, there was a horrible smell of burnt oil, so I rapidly checked underneath my car and I saw “it”, a huge leak of transmission oil. Called my dad and after like 20 minutes he got to my worked and started screaming saying: “I always tell you to go easy, never to run on the streets, blah, blah, blah...” some friends told me that with a mix of some white and black cream, it would make some kind of metal that would seal it, my dad disagreed, he insisted that it wasn’t that easy and it will cost over $200, and I was like: “oh great, what a coincidence, everything that happens to the freaking car always has to cost $200” don’t tell me, a millimeter scratch on the car also costs $200? Damn it... he took the car, I stayed with my sister’s Toyota “tercel” at least, one night of Mp3 xDD stayed listening to Nickleback. Got home and slept. Today, guess how much my dad told me the repairs cost him? Yup, $200 xDD I ignored him completely, later JL and Toad (another friend of mine) called me asking me if I wanted to see the boxing fight, as a non boxing fan, I said no, but they told me they weren’t even going to watch the fight, they where going to play some pool and play Smash bros Melee, so I really was interested. Asked my dad, and he told me: “Sure, where is it” I told him, it was at Loiza, at a friend’s father’s house, asked me who was going, I told him that JL, Toad, Julio and some other guys, and the he told me, “Ok, you have till 10 pm”... 10 pm? What the fuck? He said that the fight started at 9 and ended at 10, and then I’d head back. Then why the hell would I want to go just to see the fight? Called JL and told him, he said for that he’d prefer to go to Kathy’s and be with her. Then, started writing this Journal, about ten to fifteen minutes ago, my brother asked me: “when are you going?” told him I wasn’t, asked me why, and told him why. He went to talk to dad to prolong the time, I told him to forget it, my mood changed and I didn’t want to go, because he was scared that my friend’s house was near a gecko (caserio). After my brother left, or more specifically, when my brother was leaving, he told me to go with JL to see the fight and that I can stay there for up to 12 to 1 am, I looked at him with a Dull and a bit angry face (didn’t want to scream at him) and told him: “I can’t, JL didn’t want to go with the little time you gave me so he went to Kathy’s, now I have to stay here” It’s funny really, how my dad always, and I mean Always ruins my personal and social life just like that, I just want to... aaargh… just punch him once with all my might, but can’t and don’t want to. I’m stuck in this wanting for pleasure and the explosion of anger, and the not wanting for hurting my mother of the consequences. Damn it... definitely, my like is sucking right now.
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3 days ago
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Just remembered that I sort of promised 6vampire6angel6 I’d put this in an entry. As my current sub-nickname in my msn messenger states: “How interesting life can be, when month, weeks, sweat and tears are spent to build something which is crumbled in a second...” I’m not the type of person who likes forcing people into doing things, unlike my appearances xDD, I would have loved telling her what 6vampire6angel6 told me to tell her, but in the end, I was either shy or scared, or maybe I just didn't want to force her on loving me, than on deciding that she loved me. I kind of messed up, I let her go so that she would decide for herself, which by her eyes was an act of abandon by my side, which led to the decision of her going with her ex. Sure, it was kind of stupid of my part for doing that, but that part of my nature, being stupid. Now she didn't want to know of my existence, she thought I only wanted to have my way with her, but that wasn't true, this time I went a little of my nature and forced her to listen, told her everything, absolutely everything, and she relaxed, but had some neglect still within, I was satisfied, but not entirely, I kinda felt at fault, this was the second time a relationship of mine got ruined because of some stupid action of mine. Now, we're just friends, just like we where, maybe less, but I don't have a problem, I have a kind of gift for forgetting feelings I had before, a bit painful at first, but ended up befriending. Man, I'm so stupid. But at the end, she was sincere, and that was what made me feel relieved.
So, yesterday I was sick, I felt so sick that I didn’t even want to go to work, so I called early saying I won’t go, and forgot to get the hours I work for today. The day was a bit relaxing; at least some well deserved vacations xDD but a bit boring, Jose Luis passed by (some know him as Uesugi or RulerofHonnor) with his kindergarten girlfriend Kathy (my best friend too; she’s not kindergarten but we piss JL with that) because Kathy’s grandmother was at the doctor for her monthly check-up. I showed JL some stuff I found for his paladin in Diablo 2, and showed him how awesome my necromancer is (lvl 22, one clay golem, one blood golem, 4 skeletons and 3 mage skeletons; one skeleton is stronger than me, imagine 7 xDD) then both of them, Kathy and JL, played Paper Mario while I was bored as hell (don’t like that game, but I loved Zelda: Wind Waker) after a similar scene as the time Stewie imagined Peter is going to show him a Jack-in-the-Box, they left, don’t know why, I never get bored when JL is hear or even Kathy, maybe it was because they where both here at the same time... yeah, maybe that was it.
Then, I finished watching “Avatar: The Last Air bender” well, at least at the part they stopped making more episodes: Book 2 Chapter 20. Went to sleep, yup, a bit more relaxed, slept better than those other nights I sleep after working and taking a shower.
Woke up today, at 1:43 pm, called my work and asked at what hour I work, so to know if I’d go at 3 or 4, and they told me, you were supposed to work at 10 am today. 0.0” shit... two days straight without working, it was a super vacation xDD usually I don’t get a free day, because if I’m not working, I’m studying, if I’m not doing any of those two, I’d be in a hospital sick or 5 to 6 feet below the ground dead xDD
I hate it when my dad lies, before yesterday, when I went to work, my car had engine problems, why? Well, remember my last journal entry, when I said that Miguel drove my car, well, he did, but there where two occasions that there was a bump on the road, to let water pass to the sewers, well he took it too fast and the lower part of the car hit strongly. Thought it wasn’t something to look over. When I went to work the other day, the car was running unusually, at a stop light, the car didn’t want to run, so I stepped on the gas, then the brakes and then fast on the gas, it ran. But when I got to my work, there was a horrible smell of burnt oil, so I rapidly checked underneath my car and I saw “it”, a huge leak of transmission oil. Called my dad and after like 20 minutes he got to my worked and started screaming saying: “I always tell you to go easy, never to run on the streets, blah, blah, blah...” some friends told me that with a mix of some white and black cream, it would make some kind of metal that would seal it, my dad disagreed, he insisted that it wasn’t that easy and it will cost over $200, and I was like: “oh great, what a coincidence, everything that happens to the freaking car always has to cost $200” don’t tell me, a millimeter scratch on the car also costs $200? Damn it... he took the car, I stayed with my sister’s Toyota “tercel” at least, one night of Mp3 xDD stayed listening to Nickleback. Got home and slept. Today, guess how much my dad told me the repairs cost him? Yup, $200 xDD I ignored him completely, later JL and Toad (another friend of mine) called me asking me if I wanted to see the boxing fight, as a non boxing fan, I said no, but they told me they weren’t even going to watch the fight, they where going to play some pool and play Smash bros Melee, so I really was interested. Asked my dad, and he told me: “Sure, where is it” I told him, it was at Loiza, at a friend’s father’s house, asked me who was going, I told him that JL, Toad, Julio and some other guys, and the he told me, “Ok, you have till 10 pm”... 10 pm? What the fuck? He said that the fight started at 9 and ended at 10, and then I’d head back. Then why the hell would I want to go just to see the fight? Called JL and told him, he said for that he’d prefer to go to Kathy’s and be with her. Then, started writing this Journal, about ten to fifteen minutes ago, my brother asked me: “when are you going?” told him I wasn’t, asked me why, and told him why. He went to talk to dad to prolong the time, I told him to forget it, my mood changed and I didn’t want to go, because he was scared that my friend’s house was near a gecko (caserio). After my brother left, or more specifically, when my brother was leaving, he told me to go with JL to see the fight and that I can stay there for up to 12 to 1 am, I looked at him with a Dull and a bit angry face (didn’t want to scream at him) and told him: “I can’t, JL didn’t want to go with the little time you gave me so he went to Kathy’s, now I have to stay here” It’s funny really, how my dad always, and I mean Always ruins my personal and social life just like that, I just want to... aaargh… just punch him once with all my might, but can’t and don’t want to. I’m stuck in this wanting for pleasure and the explosion of anger, and the not wanting for hurting my mother of the consequences. Damn it... definitely, my like is sucking right now.
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3 days ago
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Just remembered that I sort of promised 6vampire6angel6 I’d put this in an entry. As my current sub-nickname in my msn messenger states: “How interesting life can be, when month, weeks, sweat and tears are spent to build something which is crumbled in a second...” I’m not the type of person who likes forcing people into doing things, unlike my appearances xDD, I would have loved telling her what 6vampire6angel6 told me to tell her, but in the end, I was either shy or scared, or maybe I just didn't want to force her on loving me, than on deciding that she loved me. I kind of messed up, I let her go so that she would decide for herself, which by her eyes was an act of abandon by my side, which led to the decision of her going with her ex. Sure, it was kind of stupid of my part for doing that, but that part of my nature, being stupid. Now she didn't want to know of my existence, she thought I only wanted to have my way with her, but that wasn't true, this time I went a little of my nature and forced her to listen, told her everything, absolutely everything, and she relaxed, but had some neglect still within, I was satisfied, but not entirely, I kinda felt at fault, this was the second time a relationship of mine got ruined because of some stupid action of mine. Now, we're just friends, just like we where, maybe less, but I don't have a problem, I have a kind of gift for forgetting feelings I had before, a bit painful at first, but ended up befriending. Man, I'm so stupid. But at the end, she was sincere, and that was what made me feel relieved.