Recent updates
Well, recently my life kinda sucked, but it had it's good parts.
Personal News:
My life had it's good parts, specially when I listen to this song called "Las Estrellas - Caramelos de Cianuros":
Yo se que solo he sido un vagabundo
un sin vergüenza, un perro inmundo
una bala perdida, una hoja caída
entonces cuando pienso en el pasado
en todo lo que me has dado
se esfumo el argumento con el cual me defiendo
Como cartas tus sorpresas en la mesa
son pequeños milagros cotidianos
y Cuento una a una las estrellas pues
se que todas ellas
son flores que en el cielo crecen para ti
y así vas ascendiendo a las alturas
yo me quedo a oscuras
pero no siento miedo debe ser así
Todo lo que a ti te sale al natural
a mi me sale mal es cierto no te miento
si te digo que lo sabes hacer todo bien
hasta el amor también despacio aprendes rápido
escucho tus consejos o todos o ninguno
son pequeños enigmas oportunos
y cuento una a una las estrellas
se que todas ellas
son flores que en el cielo crecen para ti
y así vas ascendiendo a las alturas
yo me quedo a oscuras
pero no siento miedo debe ser así
Cuento una a una las estrellas
se que todas ellas
son flores que en el cielo crecen para ti
y así vas ascendiendo a las alturas
yo me quedo a oscuras
pero no siento miedo debe ser así
Cuento una a una las estrellas
se que todas ellas
son flores que en el cielo crecen para ti
y así vas ascendiendo a las alturas
yo me quedo a oscuras
pero no siento miedo debe ser así
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there it is... Every time I listen to it, I have to sing it, kinda reminds me of something, a feeling I had when I was in a relationship, I miss that feeling, miss the fact to love someone as if my girlfriend, I miss the meaningful sex, not the ones I do just for fun, but for being with that person. I miss all that but I get afraid one time and again of what may happen to that relationship, because I personally, offend without warning or conscious, hurting that person. Recently I had been asked why they never see me with a stable girl, a girl I could proudly call "My Girlfriend" it's because I'm searching for the true feeling, I always introduce them as my friends, but still... that's all I would like at the moment, feeling loved and watched over, hugged and be sleeping while having that person in my arms... maybe it's just that I really saw the fact that I liked Maria more than usual, more than liked, like loved, and it kinda made me remember.
But for now, I must idle myself from this chaos of mine, the thought of Maria everywhere, even though I said I was ok with not being with her, part of me doesn't want to accept that fact. And when Maria calls me, telling me all her worries and angers, all her doings and all her feelings, I just want to shout at her how much I love her, but the fact is, I know the fact that I don't want to be with her, but another part says that we are almost the same, we act almost the same and like almost the same things, and the way she thinks, that's what I like. But putting this aside, maybe the fact of still feeling something towards her is making me feel this way, making me a bit miserable.
College News:
I dropped out of physics and physics lab, I wasn't doing very good, even while studying, most of my worries where with the car and the trials. T_T. Math is more than just good, have 3 A's and waiting to take the final exam next Wednesday. Discrete Structures, well, it got interesting on these last 2 days, giving us Logical Math mixed with Voodoo, I swear, it's like taking different variables, eliminating them with Tons of formulas, did I say tons? well it was right, Tons and Tons of formulas. Programming, well, Passed the 2nd exam with a 75% and now tomorrow I have to give my professor all the programs with some written progress. Other stuff are ok, except for the payment of course, I expect to be able to pay it off, if not... I'm fucked, my mom told me she can't help me with this trimester's payment, and my credit card has like $400 only, and all the weeks I'm gathering almost $60, in earned, I have like $250 and hoping it gets up to $1100 soon xDD
Friend News:
I'm worried about Shi, she's getting sick and all these things and now she has high blood pressure, which made her bleed from her nose... hope it doesn't go to anything bad... "Who would take me to the university later?" xDD kidding :P
Work News:
Ack, hate this... want a good job... it's almost Thursday and my hand still aches from last week's work... bah...
Guild Wars News:
Yes, I have GW, :P JL had GW and never played it, so I asked his account and now I'm playing it FREE xDD but I plan to get Prophecies and Eye of North (although I think I have Eye of North...) first I'll wright something of my Characters:
Zok of the Shadows: (Necromancer/Monk)
This little guy had some skill issues, he first was a Vampire Styled Necromancer, using only blood-sucking skills, but later, he tried some dark magic to make minions and proved more efficiently than before.
Background:
Zok lived mostly in the shadows of the dark, he knew nothing but the shadows, his father died, and his mother treated him as garbage, keeping him as a tool to use when useful, and the rest of the time, locked in his room with no light. His childhood was all darkened, he had no friends but his own shadow, until a man, from the outside who Zok saw from a small hole, showed him the arts of darkness, how to create creatures of darkness. Over time, Zok had new friends, the very same creatures he created, with the corpses of rats and other small creatures. After time, he came to contact some people of the Shing Jea Monastery, where he could improve his mastery of his dark arts. Not like most Necromancer, Zok loves death, loves it's ways of manifesting, but respects it at all cost. He became so in love with death, that he made the dead his companions, his shield and even his own sword, trusting them with his life. So much he trusted them that he abandoned all his attachments and walked a road of none stop breading of those creatures.
Characteristic:
Cold, Straightforward, Patient, Respectful and a Gentleman.
Kiara Maih: (Elementalist/Ritualist**) in progress to change 2nd job specialization
Fire/earth based elementalist, that lets others fight for her, she is afraid to fight or get into fights, and if fights, stays as away of conflict as possible. She may be all afraid of combat and of Afflicted creatures, but she packs one strong punch.
Background:
In the making...
Characteristic:
Shy, Open-minded, coward (when in fights), rebellious and persuasive.