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Sucks to know that the best friend i had, isn't even my best friend. This is why i don't believe in best friends. If you were my best friend, you would be able to just be happy for me when i'm happy. yes, it means we get to spend less time together, but all you have to say is, "hey, lets hang out" and i'll hang out with you. you can't expect me to seek you out every time. frienship is a two way street, and i don't see you putting forth much effort either. therefore, just because i haven't been like, "hey.. lets hang out" does not mean that i don't want to hang out with you.
its funny how patterns show up in life. last semester, i would think i had plans with you and then suddenly i didn't. this happened so many times that i just stopped depending on our plans, and would hang out with john instead. perhaps if you followed through with plans, i would take them more seriously. i knew that if i called john and said "lets hang out" then it would actually happen, which was often more fun than sitting at home alone waiting for your phone calls that were supposed to come "after this meeting" or "after i do this one thing." i guess you do know how much it hurt to hear, "you know, i think i'm just going to stay here with lindsey instead." since you're getting some of that now. however. i didn't replace you, you allowed yourself to get replaced. and, yeah. i guess it sucks.
its funny how patterns show up in life. last semester, i would think i had plans with you and then suddenly i didn't. this happened so many times that i just stopped depending on our plans, and would hang out with john instead. perhaps if you followed through with plans, i would take them more seriously. i knew that if i called john and said "lets hang out" then it would actually happen, which was often more fun than sitting at home alone waiting for your phone calls that were supposed to come "after this meeting" or "after i do this one thing." i guess you do know how much it hurt to hear, "you know, i think i'm just going to stay here with lindsey instead." since you're getting some of that now. however. i didn't replace you, you allowed yourself to get replaced. and, yeah. i guess it sucks.