first entry of 2009
Three days left...
So much of my break was wasted.
I didn't draw as much as I would have liked.
I never had a life drawing day with Bill.
Boo.
I don't think I've ever been quite so fascinated by a person as much as I am by Bill.
He and frequently have sleep schedules that don't exactly match up and, as was the case for several nights during the break, we'll spend the night together, but he'll be sleeping soundly and I'll just be laying next to him, still awake. Sometimes I'll make myself get up and rummage for food or watch a movie or something. But, more often than not, I'm finding that I'm perfectly content just laying next to him and watching him. Running my hand over his skin. Offering his shoulders a million little kisses that he'd never even know about.
I make resolutions every year, but I never tell them to anyone, because I know myself well enough to know they'll never really be fully realized. Generally, I just try to focus on continuing. Doing more. Draw more than I did last year. At least those are usually do-able...
Besides pokemon (which doesn't really count anyway), I haven't actually been much into gaming since high school. Now that all of the systems I used to love are obsolete and gathering dust, all I want to do is go back to it. I don't want all the new games and systems they're throwing out. I want my Ocarina of Time and Final Fantasy 8. I miss when people would use 'Nintendo' not just as a company name, but a name to refer to the console and games themselves. I don't care if the graphics were 'horrible,' the games were better. I miss sprites. I miss going to school and being in shop class with John Kurkowski and having nerdy conversations with him about the Lost Woods.
Fuck, I was awesome. lol
Let's go play Nintendo.
So much of my break was wasted.
I didn't draw as much as I would have liked.
I never had a life drawing day with Bill.
Boo.
I don't think I've ever been quite so fascinated by a person as much as I am by Bill.
He and frequently have sleep schedules that don't exactly match up and, as was the case for several nights during the break, we'll spend the night together, but he'll be sleeping soundly and I'll just be laying next to him, still awake. Sometimes I'll make myself get up and rummage for food or watch a movie or something. But, more often than not, I'm finding that I'm perfectly content just laying next to him and watching him. Running my hand over his skin. Offering his shoulders a million little kisses that he'd never even know about.
I make resolutions every year, but I never tell them to anyone, because I know myself well enough to know they'll never really be fully realized. Generally, I just try to focus on continuing. Doing more. Draw more than I did last year. At least those are usually do-able...
Besides pokemon (which doesn't really count anyway), I haven't actually been much into gaming since high school. Now that all of the systems I used to love are obsolete and gathering dust, all I want to do is go back to it. I don't want all the new games and systems they're throwing out. I want my Ocarina of Time and Final Fantasy 8. I miss when people would use 'Nintendo' not just as a company name, but a name to refer to the console and games themselves. I don't care if the graphics were 'horrible,' the games were better. I miss sprites. I miss going to school and being in shop class with John Kurkowski and having nerdy conversations with him about the Lost Woods.
Fuck, I was awesome. lol
Let's go play Nintendo.