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it's 3:10am
and I'm still wide awake.
I think that tells you something.
It tells me that I'm afraid of sleeping... for knowing that every time I close my eyes, all I see is her.
I'm not afraid to only see her, I just don't know if I can handle it.
This morning was the worst. Not even 12 hours before, I was expecting to wake up that morning, with her beside me, ready to start the day, even just to sleep there next to me.
When I woke up, there was nothing. Not even a phone call.
Nothing
that is what I feel
Nothing
I'm empty.
and I'm still wide awake.
I think that tells you something.
It tells me that I'm afraid of sleeping... for knowing that every time I close my eyes, all I see is her.
I'm not afraid to only see her, I just don't know if I can handle it.
This morning was the worst. Not even 12 hours before, I was expecting to wake up that morning, with her beside me, ready to start the day, even just to sleep there next to me.
When I woke up, there was nothing. Not even a phone call.
Nothing
that is what I feel
Nothing
I'm empty.