Nights like tonight
So Matt stopped by work today, so I got to show him off just a bit. It felt great and made my day brighter, however he took off 15 mins before I was off.. he said he needed to go over to Sam's and to call him when I got home... by that time he was already back to his house and no movies were seen...
I started the puzzel that his grandmother gave me for our first christmas (2 years ago), I want nothing more than to have him help me work on it, so when it hangs in my living room that I can have the memories of us doing it together... However he was working on the engine tonight so he didn't come over for that either.
Nights like tonight that are going to storm, you can smell the rain and hear my chims blowing in the wind that rarely comes, you want nothing more than to have someone to enjoy it with... I want to sit on the portch and listen to the rain snuggled in the arms of the man that I love, then to curl up in bed and feel safe.. Not just any man.. I want that man to be Matt... I want nothing more than to be his wife and live with him till the day I die. Yet it seems these past couple of days he has been pulling away again... Spending less time with me and barely talking on the phone... Maybe his grandfathers failing health is really starting to get to him... But being "the tough man" that he pretends to be, he is trying to act like its not bothering him... So maybe that is just the problem... Being selfish and being in love with him.. I want him here... with me... keeping me safe.
I started the puzzel that his grandmother gave me for our first christmas (2 years ago), I want nothing more than to have him help me work on it, so when it hangs in my living room that I can have the memories of us doing it together... However he was working on the engine tonight so he didn't come over for that either.
Nights like tonight that are going to storm, you can smell the rain and hear my chims blowing in the wind that rarely comes, you want nothing more than to have someone to enjoy it with... I want to sit on the portch and listen to the rain snuggled in the arms of the man that I love, then to curl up in bed and feel safe.. Not just any man.. I want that man to be Matt... I want nothing more than to be his wife and live with him till the day I die. Yet it seems these past couple of days he has been pulling away again... Spending less time with me and barely talking on the phone... Maybe his grandfathers failing health is really starting to get to him... But being "the tough man" that he pretends to be, he is trying to act like its not bothering him... So maybe that is just the problem... Being selfish and being in love with him.. I want him here... with me... keeping me safe.