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Okay so life is good, im leaving on monday and wont be back for a while so im def. gonna miss everyone a lot, but ill see most of them soon. nicole leaves tomorrow morning on a cruise to italy and all the beautiful places so we are going out to dinner to celebrate her leaving...okay that sounded wrong, not celebrate her leaving, but a goodbye dinner..yeah thats what it is a "goodbye dinner" and i guess in a way we are saying goodbye to everyone since i wont be seeing anyone for a while after monday...damn shit kinda sucks...umm on another note i realized that i guess it takes a lot of will power to keep things from progressing, especially when you thought that feelings or emotions were long tucked away in the back corner of your brain...i mean who woulda thought, seriously most people can supress or repress their thoughts, the only difference being that one is conscious the other is not. i mean yes i know i consciously put those memories away and i guess i should be able to put them right back in their corner, i sound like im talking about little kids...haha i amuse myself. anyway im going to college soon and the good part about that is i will be far away, far away from the memories that i dont want to remember...i can leave all this stuff behind, well the stuff i dont want to take with me anyway. i mean i had a decision to make tasha what do u want to take to college, i could've taken it all but i left some of it, why you ask, because thats what im supposed to do. im supposed to leave the past behind and focus on the here and now. and so thats what im doing, im focusing on the here and now. what is to come, im not sure but somehow i have a feeling it will all work itself out, if its meant to be it will be if not then it just wasnt. i dont want to regret anything ever, i mean sometimes i regret things but i never let myself forget it so i always end up doing something about it and then end up being like ahh why would u do such a thing..lol oh well im just one confusing individual. i love all of you very very much............