(no subject)
okay so im gonna start off by saying that this is going to be one of THOSE entries...you know the sob story ones..yeah thats this, so if ur not interested DON'T READ IT. Okay so basically this week has been a fucking mess, i mean seriously. Have you ever felt like nothing else could go wrong and then it does? Ever felt like you can't trust anyone in this world to stab you in the back, i mean why can't they stab you in the front. i hate people like that i mean fuck it. if thats one thing ive learned this year its how to toughen up, get thick skin just not care. i mean a couple months ago i would have cared i would have spent every waking minute pondering what was going wrong in my life but you know what, now i just dont do that. if somethings wrong i say it and i put it out there and then whatever happens happens, its just better that way. i thought that these next two weeks were going to be awesome, i mean im not going to see my friends for a realllly long time, and im going to miss them like you wouldn't believe. i mean come on these are the people i count on for everything, they are my support and my life and im going to miss each and every one of them. tonight i went to neha's house with nicole and meredith, actually i met them there and some major shit happened. i mean i dont know what to think about anything anymore. im so confused because i end up hurting the people i care about the most without even trying. i wasnt trying to be malicious i wasnt trying to hurt anyone but i did which totally sucks because now people are mad at me and i mean all i fucking wanted to do was apologize and have everything be okay, i mean really i am sorry i didnt mean to hurt anyone i just didnt. i guess im just different than most people when it comes to certain things, i should have stepped inside her head and seen what she was seeing but i cant do that you know. i guess im just different that way and IM SORRY, okay IM SO FUCKING SORRY. anyway so that was some major ass drama and i still dont think things are cleared up but at least now i know that i cant trust anyone and that this next week is still gonan suck woo! peace out bitches