Well... i guess it doesn't feel too much like the apocalypse...
Yeah. Not good. D D C.
I haven't started crying yet... I’m kind of ok at the moment. aforni called because she couldn't stand the wait and when she started getting upset I felt it. So as long as everyone around me stays calm then so can I.
I called them up to ask what could happen and they have to get a copy of my certificate (which my mother’s doing now) and all decisions are made next week. I’ve no idea how hopeful this is… they may
a) let me on anyway,
b) let me on the foundation degree course (which is what I want to happen) or
c) just say Sorry but no thanks.
…What’ll I do if I’m left here?
If I do all this then I can ride around on my *kick ass* bike all year, picking up grrls and bringing them back to my flat by enticing them with my ‘sensitive musician side’. (Oh Yeah. It’s all about the optimism kids ;) )
Wow I actually made myself laugh. I amaze even myself. hmm... Yeah.
I haven't started crying yet... I’m kind of ok at the moment. aforni called because she couldn't stand the wait and when she started getting upset I felt it. So as long as everyone around me stays calm then so can I.
I called them up to ask what could happen and they have to get a copy of my certificate (which my mother’s doing now) and all decisions are made next week. I’ve no idea how hopeful this is… they may
a) let me on anyway,
b) let me on the foundation degree course (which is what I want to happen) or
c) just say Sorry but no thanks.
…What’ll I do if I’m left here?
- I’m moving out of this stupidly small room if not the house. I’m forcing my mother to convert the living room for me. Nobody should be sleeping in a room this small especially if they’re 18 and want to bring back grrls from whatever club they’ve just been to. Its just not practical.
- I’ll switch jobs to freelance musician once I’ve got my harp repertoire up again… (The last job I did about a year ago and I played two 45 minute sets at Manchester art gallery and got £165 for it. That was a bit over £50 an hour plus expenses. So what the hell am I doing serving cider to scallies at the MEN arena???)
- I’m going to learn to drive. I’m also going to get a motor bike and learn to drive that because they are *kick ass* (yes I’m really quite serious). I can definitely afford it if I get some sort of residency playing the aforementioned harp.
If I do all this then I can ride around on my *kick ass* bike all year, picking up grrls and bringing them back to my flat by enticing them with my ‘sensitive musician side’. (Oh Yeah. It’s all about the optimism kids ;) )
Wow I actually made myself laugh. I amaze even myself. hmm... Yeah.