dont read this, its about kevin
hey, so i've talked to kevin tonight and unfortunately, he found out i knew. i can't keep stuff from him, its impossible. i hate that i'm so mellow about it w/ him cuz i do care, and i am hurt, but i know if he sees that he'll get annoyed and just walk away... WHY AM I THE ONE WATCHING WHAT I DO!
anyway, so i've realized..... and i hate that i'm saying that because, like amelia, i am a fickle chick.... but i dont think i really care. it sucked at first, but i'm more pissed than anything, not that he's w/ her but because he lied... even tho he said he didnt.
but anyway... we talked. he says. he only kept it from me to keep my feelings from getting hurt. and he didnt know what to say or how to say it. and he was just scared. he says she deserves to be treated better than what she's been treated like in the past. but why does he have to be the one to fix it. its like he wants to fix everything w/ every girl except for me.
he told me to grow up, is that not funny? oh well.....
regardless i still love him. and um... we can be friends. but nothing more because yea, i like other people now, and so i'm not all depressed and stuck on him. so basically. its over. after saturday its over. hahaha how long will this last. you all know, whomever is reading this [which i doubt is no one] that i'll be so in love w/ him again in a few days when he realizes he picks bad/stupid girls.... he picked gretchen. woah coke head.... he picked her, whoa had sex w/ ed [sorry kevin]... he wanted janine, whoah tooo many games...... he should just stick to the girls that chase HIM. like, me..
if this sounds a little weird its true, because i'm sort of writing this whole post knowing that he's going to read it..... um.
scratch everything i said. i would do it in that cool lj way where you put a line throuhg everything, but i dunno how.
anyway, so i've realized..... and i hate that i'm saying that because, like amelia, i am a fickle chick.... but i dont think i really care. it sucked at first, but i'm more pissed than anything, not that he's w/ her but because he lied... even tho he said he didnt.
but anyway... we talked. he says. he only kept it from me to keep my feelings from getting hurt. and he didnt know what to say or how to say it. and he was just scared. he says she deserves to be treated better than what she's been treated like in the past. but why does he have to be the one to fix it. its like he wants to fix everything w/ every girl except for me.
he told me to grow up, is that not funny? oh well.....
regardless i still love him. and um... we can be friends. but nothing more because yea, i like other people now, and so i'm not all depressed and stuck on him. so basically. its over. after saturday its over. hahaha how long will this last. you all know, whomever is reading this [which i doubt is no one] that i'll be so in love w/ him again in a few days when he realizes he picks bad/stupid girls.... he picked gretchen. woah coke head.... he picked her, whoa had sex w/ ed [sorry kevin]... he wanted janine, whoah tooo many games...... he should just stick to the girls that chase HIM. like, me..
if this sounds a little weird its true, because i'm sort of writing this whole post knowing that he's going to read it..... um.
scratch everything i said. i would do it in that cool lj way where you put a line throuhg everything, but i dunno how.