Fic: She Falls Apart - Five
Title: She Falls Apart - Five
Fandom, Pairing: RPF (Disney) Demi/Selena
Rating: Varies but we'll say M to NC-17 over most chapters.
Disclaimer: This is a work of complete and utter fiction.
Summary: Following An Untitled Prologue which was written for a prompt over at colorwithme this follows what happens between Demi and Selena after.
Authors Notes: Thanks to Faye letscall-l for being the beta on this one - your comments have kept me working on this. So thank you like x100000 for all your input :D
Warnings: This fic deals with adult situations like sex (and on that note the girls are older now - obviously), alcohol consumption and some general adult themes.
This does deal with some sensitive issues of non-con/date-rape and rape - if this disturbs you please don't read it.
Chapter Five
Demi smiles at Taylor as she opens the door to let her in.
“So she’s agreed to see me?” She asks hopefully.
“No” Taylor sighs as she shuts the door “I have to go out and I just can’t leave her here alone, I know you want to make things up to her so I thought you could be here”
“Is she …” Demi didn’t know how to ask, she felt physically ill that Selena could be suicidal, she’d never had the intention for things to turn out that way. Selena was meant to be stronger than that. She was the one who always picked up Demi, always took the blade away from her when she was feeling low.
“No, she’s not. She hasn’t said anything” Taylor fidgets “I’m just worried.” Demi can see her discomfort. She knows there are conflicting emotions for the older blonde. Miley has been at her to let Demi have a chance, but Taylor knows that something happened and Demi broke Selena’s heart recently. But Taylor obviously doesn’t have any other options and Demi is glad Miley convinced the blonde to ask for her help. Miley was so sweet in helping Demi, trusting the girl despite the distance that had grown between them. As she heads up the stairs behind Taylor she wonders how Miley would react if she found out about the first time she took advantage of Selena, if she would be forgiving or not. Demi pokes her head inside to find Selena curled up watching Friends DVDs. Selena looks up and her eyes connect with Demi’s, she just stares back. It unnerves Demi that she isn’t yelling or angry at her, she just looks emotionless. Selena’s eyes return to the screen, barely paying attention to the girls who entered the room. Taylor moves over to the bed while Demi hovers in the doorway.
“Sel, I’m going to head out to the studio, Demi’s going to hang around if you need anything” Taylor pulls Selena into a quick hug before leaving. She casts one last look at the younger girls, contemplating if this is a good idea, before leaving them alone.
“Um, I know you hate me right now, but … I’m here for you” Demi stands in the doorway and watches as Selena stares at the flickering screen. “I’ll just hang around downstairs I guess” She mumbles and turns to leave the older girl alone. She knows better than to push her luck right now, she needs Selena to come to her first. She needs to wait until Selena is ready to forgive her otherwise the other girl will just push her away and she’ll loose any chance of getting close again.
“Demi” Selena speaks up and Demi is surprised at just how strong and normal her voice sounds. “I …” She pauses and Demi watches as her face twists, it’s apparent she’d holding back tears “Can you come over here?” Demi moves to Selena’s side and pulls the other girl into a hug. Selena presses herself against Demi, she feels too lost and confused to stay mad at Demi. She knows she probably shouldn’t forgive the girl but as her tears soak into Demi’s shirt she rationalises that Demi is there for her now, willing to help her through something so much worse than what happened between them. Blurred memories of one night together hover in her mind, mixed up with running around her back yard and Texan summers. She sobs against her friend and clutches her closer. She feels Demi rub small circles on her back as she sobs against the other girl. She’d been heartbroken that Demi had left her after one drunken night but her old friend was here now, here to hold her while she cries over something she can’t even remember. Demi whispers softly into her ear, she doesn’t catch any words, she only registers a soft murmur that is strangely comforting. Her sobs give way to hiccups and Demi just holds her. As Selena starts to drift to sleep she listens to Demi softly whispering, the words clear now as she realises it’s a song.
“It’s too quiet in here,make it all go away. Why can't we break the silence, finally?”
She smiles and wonders how long Demi has been singing her songs while she hasn’t been registering the words.
Taylor is exhausted when she returns to find Demi and Selena curled up together, both girls fast asleep, a tangle of limbs in Selena’s bed. She leans against the door frame and smiles. She feels a happiness swell inside her that Demi has finally realised that she belongs with Selena, that she shouldn’t be running around trying to be some big rock-star. She guesses Demi was swept up in the lifestyle, it took realising what a complete and utter prick Michael really is for her to turn back to her old friend. It’s terrible circumstances but Taylor is glad Demi is here now to support Selena. Taylor moves away from the door and down the hall to the guest room. She yawns and ponders what happened between the girls at the party a few months ago. Demi is obviously determined to make amends but Selena’s words the next morning still haunt Taylor.
“She just used me Tay, she wasn’t interested in us being friends again or anything, she just wanted to use me”
It was Miley’s idea to ask Demi to come over to keep an eye on Selena. After it was apparent that no-one else was available, or at least not without explaining what had happened. She’d considered people like David and Jennifer but didn’t want to explain Selena’s often catatonic state to her old co-stars. She’d called Miley of course who told her to just give Demi a chance.
“Gurl, we know Demi can be a fuck-up but we also know she loves Selena. They’re like sisters. Giver her a chance”
Demi seemed to have made amends with Selena but Taylor couldn’t help but worry.
Taylors phone suddenly burst to life, she grabbed for it as it blared the opening bars of ‘7 things’.
“Hi Miley” She smiled as she answered.
“Hey, how’d things go, did Demi come over?”
“Yea, they’re both asleep in Selena’s room”
“Good, and how did the recording go?”
“Great” the blonde beamed, her fingers suddenly springing to life and fidgeting, creating chords against an invisible fret. “I think we’ve got a lot of progress done”
“I can’t wait to see you on tour” there is a note of longing in Miley’s voice. The two friends will be apart until the later part of Taylor’s tour when Miley joins as a supporting act.
“I wish the new albums had synced up better” Taylor adds. Demi’s tour was wrapping up just as Taylors is about to kick off and Miley’s ‘comeback’ album and tour wouldn’t start till much later. She wished they all had more time to spend together. Selena was the only one who stayed put most of the time. Music had been pushed aside as Selena landed more grown up film roles.
“I know” Miley sighs into the phone “I miss you, I miss everyone in LA. I wish I had been back longer” but of course Billy-Ray had insisted she spend her time back in Tennessee to record the new album.
“We’ll see each other again soon enough”
“CUT” The voice booms and Selena presses her fingers against her head. She feels so out of focus and useless.
“Sel?” Ryan is looking at her concerned, there is blood dripping down his forehead, his chiselled upper body is grubby, dirt and blood is smeared across it. He’s holding up an axe but despite his appearance his eyes look soft and full of concern.
“Are you ok?” he puts down his prop and suddenly pulls Selena into his arms as their director walks up to them.
“Selena, what’s wrong? You’ve been fucking up all day.” She watches as Ryan protectively holds Selena against him. Her dirty white tank top is sticking against her body, fake blood is caked into her hair.
“Sel?” She tries to sound less angry as she addresses the starlet this time.
“I’m sorry” Selena mumbles against Ryan. Cassie feels her heart break a little for the younger woman.
“It’s ok” She gently pulls her away from her co-star “Look, take some time out, we can shoot some other scenes over the next few days.” Selena nods numbly then takes a step away but Cassie grabs her arms softly “Hey, promise me one thing. Go see someone”
“I’ll be ok” Selena argues.
“Look I want to know you went to see a professional. I don’t care if it’s one visit, Sel you never behave like this. We’ve worked together a lot and I can see something is really wrong” She watches her young star stand awkwardly in front of her “Please Sel, for my own piece of mind, just go”
Selena stares at her feet for about five minutes before nodding her head. Cassie suddenly pulls her into a hug.
“Thank You” She squeezes her before letting her go “Now go home and sort yourself out. I expect you back on set for the weekend.” Cassie then turns and searches for the AD’s. The next few days schedules need to be reorganised now Selena has been granted time off. As she wanders off set she feels an immense amount of guilt for screwing up the schedule of the movie. Just because she couldn’t remember line, lines she and Ryan had perfect a few days ago. Every time a shadow loomed behind her she froze and forgot she was on set. Suddenly afraid Michael was going to appear on set. She knew he wasn’t even in the country but the idea of seeing him terrified her so much she just wasn’t coping at the moment. She knew if it wasn’t a horror movie she would be coping much better. She tried to rationalise that Ryan would look after her in real life as much as his character did in the movies. She pulled her phone out her pocket and decided it was time to make a phone call she’d been avoiding. She knew the one person who would help her find a good therapist.
“Mom?” She asked when the call connected.
“Selena? Are you alright?”
Chapter Six