just because you don't see me cry, doesn't mean i don't cry

[tashabear]

Watching the most recent episode of Bones, and Booth is judging a parent who just lost his child because of his lack of reaction. I can totally relate to the guy who had a flat reaction, and I feel like I was judged by my former in-laws because I wasn't all sad, all the time, while Wolfie was sick and after he died. Worry and grief are exhausting, and I just had to find ways and reasons to smile. Besides, after all they put me through; I wasn't going to give them the satisfaction of falling apart.

Tomorrow is the anniversary of his death. I miss him so much.