SINGLE AGAIN
So the man I am madly in love with called me up last night and told me he didn't want to be with me anymore and didn't want to know anyone that he knew before Portland. Well fuck him. If that is the only way you can get back on track then so be it. I know his life is in shambles, however that is what happens when you just get up in move without having a home or job. I am surprised Chris has let him crash on his couch for 2 months. Good friends I suppose. I have a non-refundable plane ticket to Portland for my week of vaction in september. I specifically ask him if he was sure he wanted to still be with me and wanted me to fly out there before I bought the ticket. No more than 5 days later you tell me you don't want to know me, really cool. If that isn't love I don't know what is. So yeah going to Portland for a week. Maybe I can stay with Chris if Bryan is gone by then, or maybe find a hostel to hang out in. Oh Bryan you are quite the collection of lies, maybe one day he will see how fucking stupid he is being. There is a fine line between being selfish and self-loving. I don't deserved to have my emotions fucked with like this, he is a rageing disappointment. So anyways I want script on my collar bone that says BE HERE BE NOW. I started working at geckos as a waitress. fucking intense. whatever keeps my mind off bryan and portland is a good thing.