nutritionist!

[taryn1982]

Well, I didnt think i would be so excited after a visit to a nutritionist but it HELPED SOOOO MUCH. She was so caring and really listened to what I had to say. So we did alot of food analasis....and we created meal plan options since i typically eat little things all day as opposed to actual meals.....which is bad because then i eventually eat less and less and less...but i needed to catch it this time before that took over. i am ready to KICK THIS THING TO THE CURB. It's not worth it anymore. And I really mean it this time. I make myself miserable to keep control of this stupid number issue. It has been 10 years friends. and when it gets severe I turn into a completely different antisocial taryn. Rachel threw my scale away last week the day I went to the nutritionist and it has made a huge difference. because whatever my weight was in the morning determined what i ate for the day or how much i was going to exercise ect....a HUGE control thing and always has been. Anyway, so we made a plan of action to start getting my body on a structured food clock....breakfast snack lunch snack dinner. sounds simple to ppl i know. but that's hard for me to get into the habit of. It was really hard for the first few days and has gotten much easier. One, I wasnt used to eating so much at one time so my stomach hurt, and two I had to tell my brain that even though i was eating more not to freak out if I gained weight (i know i have, but since i dont know the NUMBER I am ok with it...) she told me if i would throw my scale away that she's tell me my weight when i came to my next appt (which will be tuesday) and I agreed. I dont think I want to know anymore. I know I weighed 116 when I went (which is about 10-12 pounds lower than where my ideal comfortable weight is...) and I think if i knew the number when i go back I will just be disappointed. So i guess I'll do that. I say I dont want to know. :) So i am used to that meal schedule now even though I eat small portions. I still am not sure why that number is so important to me......

anyhow....
love :)