Today
Started off really well. I made it to french class on time and actually knew what was going to be on the quiz. MAJOR SHOCKER!!! After that things just kind of went downhill. Did poorly at pool today only won by default. Helped clean. took a nap, went to school found out i made a 26 on my precal test. He didn't ask how it went. WEnt back to his place to see him, didn't seem to happy to see me. He left, then i left. Came home and now i'm getting bitched at from the parental unit. But i'm pretty much used to it. Apparently everyone's life would be stressful and much better without me. All i do is fucking cry all the time. Work is freakin stressful cause i have to manage that and see him and go to school and somehow keep the parental units happy. It's so fucking hard. I can't take it anymore. I wish people would just disappear sometimes. I wish i was enclosed in a room with a window, a door that locks on the outside, a phone and a stereo, and some food, and just lived there all by myself for at least 2 months, clearing my head and shit. Maybe i'll put my self in a psych ward maybe people would begin to realize that life wasn't all that bad with me, and that i do bring joy into their lives. Psh like that'll ever happen no one is happy with the way i am.