confused
so a very interesting thing happened tonight. a random person who inexplicably got my screenname, yet did not know how she got it (this happens frequently, and is invariably a female under the age of 16), IMed me asking "hi who is this?" at first i did what i usually do when this happens, and tried to piss her off to make her stop talking, but somehow that evolved into us talking for over an hour. eventually we got around to the subject of drugs, and she proceeded to tell me how she'll pretty much take any drug anyone gives her, to make her feel better about herself. at this point, i proceeded to explain exactly how stupid that was, until she said something that stopped me dead in my tracks: "why do you care? you don't even know me."
why did i care? as soon as she said that, i realized she was right, i had no real reason to care, and therefore stopped caring and let her do her own thing or whatever. but, for a few minutes there, it bothered me that a random person who i barely knew was screwing herself up. why? i didn't know this girl, she meant nothing to me whatsoever, why should i care if she lived or died? it's none of my concern. whatever she does won't affect me, nor will it affect anyone i'm particularly close to. logically, then, i shouldn't give a shit one way or another about her. up until this point, the world has been divided into the people who matter and the people who don't. as i meet new people and lose contact with older acquaintences, various people have crossed that line from one side to the other from time to time, but never before tonight has that line ever been blurred. it's a bit disconcerting, really.
parents are bitching about some random thing again...i guess i'll go see what they want, and maybe i just might do it this time. then i might call tanya. we'll see. either way, i leave now.
why did i care? as soon as she said that, i realized she was right, i had no real reason to care, and therefore stopped caring and let her do her own thing or whatever. but, for a few minutes there, it bothered me that a random person who i barely knew was screwing herself up. why? i didn't know this girl, she meant nothing to me whatsoever, why should i care if she lived or died? it's none of my concern. whatever she does won't affect me, nor will it affect anyone i'm particularly close to. logically, then, i shouldn't give a shit one way or another about her. up until this point, the world has been divided into the people who matter and the people who don't. as i meet new people and lose contact with older acquaintences, various people have crossed that line from one side to the other from time to time, but never before tonight has that line ever been blurred. it's a bit disconcerting, really.
parents are bitching about some random thing again...i guess i'll go see what they want, and maybe i just might do it this time. then i might call tanya. we'll see. either way, i leave now.