nostalgic babble, part 1

[tardgirl]

oh man..we're done with high school..parents kept asking me how it felt, and i didn't really know how to answer. i mean, i'm so happy that i'm going to college, yet apprehensive about it, and also upset about leaving such a great group of people. there's such unity among us, i always feel like if i'm alone, i can go up to like anyone in the grade and strike up a conversation. and everyone will stick up for each other. at the party i didn't feel like "this is the last time we'll ever see each other," but it was more like "here we are, let's have a good time." it wasn't like goodbye, it was a reaffirmation that we all love each other even if we don't realize it. people like jason zuckerman, who you wouldn't even think affect the grade, i saw him there and i felt reassured. i'm so glad he went, he's just hilarious. well granted there are those few exceptions like jessica dyer and brittany, who no one could care less if they aren't around, but because they're not a part of the grade so much. if you're good-natured and friendly, then people will accept you. and that's like, basic common sense. but the people like jenny and ryan, you feel like they're always there back you up when you need it. i would not exchange my high school experience for the world. i wish i'd gotten to know people earlier. it's just been this year that i started to talking to people outside my tiny circle of friends. probably because i realized that being friends with ac had pretty much isolated me from everyone else. after we stopped talking, i found it so strange to talk to doris and preethy. i felt like i was intruding upon their friendship. but they welcomed me and respected me, and it's because of them that i had the confidence to go find out who else's friendship i'd overlooked. michael..i never imagined we'd be so close. he helped me reestablish faith in myself. i knew he had a gf, and so the only reason he talked to me was because he actually thought i was interesting. he's one of my few friends that's leaving the state, and that will be rough.

i could go on and on..so to be continued