Why do I still worry about him..
Pauline who is pikes sister asked me a question today after I made a list of things that she had to tell pike cause he will forget..She asked me why I am worrying about him when he is not worried about me?
The answer...I have no idea...I am a worry wort I know...but to worry about a man that dumped me and never even called nor looked back? I am a sucker for being hurt and I finally am at a point in my life where I keep wondering why do I want to make sure that he is ok? I have no idea...maybe it is the same thing as hadley altho I hate putting them in the same catorgory...maybe I feel like no matter what he did I am suppose to worry...
Logan is better today it must have been a bug or something, I was so scared that he had gotten antrax or something..He looked so sad just lying there and dosing in and outta sleep..I mean when the child would not eat his birthday cake I knew that was a major problem...Logan lives to eat, he would eat 10 times a day if you let him.
I have thought about packing us all up and moving far away but then the same things come in to my head...Move to a strange place and know not a person...No job....no money....no one but the kids....well besides all that....how do I think that it is normal to wanna run away from all my problems...I think maybe I will sit down and list all the bad things in my life...then one by one get rid of them and only focas on the good things...
The answer...I have no idea...I am a worry wort I know...but to worry about a man that dumped me and never even called nor looked back? I am a sucker for being hurt and I finally am at a point in my life where I keep wondering why do I want to make sure that he is ok? I have no idea...maybe it is the same thing as hadley altho I hate putting them in the same catorgory...maybe I feel like no matter what he did I am suppose to worry...
Logan is better today it must have been a bug or something, I was so scared that he had gotten antrax or something..He looked so sad just lying there and dosing in and outta sleep..I mean when the child would not eat his birthday cake I knew that was a major problem...Logan lives to eat, he would eat 10 times a day if you let him.
I have thought about packing us all up and moving far away but then the same things come in to my head...Move to a strange place and know not a person...No job....no money....no one but the kids....well besides all that....how do I think that it is normal to wanna run away from all my problems...I think maybe I will sit down and list all the bad things in my life...then one by one get rid of them and only focas on the good things...