Mar 30, 2005 23:16
I know this journal has been kinda overlooked in the last bit I have sat in front of this page a million times in the last little bit but there is so much I can say but yet nothing that I wanna share with the world? Wierd I think that I am sooo fulll of shit to say but still dont wanna say it. I dont know I feel anti-social. I dont wanna talk to anyone nor do I wanna tell them how I feel or what I think ... I dont know I think I may be losiung my mind..
Corrine and Steve have a cancer warror whos name is Sam, that child has to be the bravest kid I have ever saw. He is 4 years old and has Acute Lymphocytic Leukemia and has dealt with more in his life then anyone I know, but he still finds a way to smile and enjoy life. Pike and I have talked a millon times over about Sam and his family and how strong they are. We have talked about how we would deal with finding out our child had a illness to that degree and we both agree that we would fall apart. I think that Sams Moms are 2 of the strongest and bravest people in the world. they seem to face this illness head on and are not giving in, all the while they are raising another little boy Sams brother Noah. How they handle it all baffels me. I think that I would be a mess..I would lose my mind. I mean I look at logan who is almost the same age as Sam and I think about if it was him how would I deal? I know that it is awful to say but I dont think I could handle it. How do you look at your child that you brought into this world and try to justify his pain all the while keeping a optimistic point of view? He has been thru soo much my heart brakes for him, but he is a fighter and I do believe that he will LIVE THE CURE! He is in the hospital right now but sam is a fighter and he will get thru it.
I dont know where that came from at all, I started thinking and typing and that is what I got. But yeah Please everyone pray that Sam gets to go home soon from the hospital so that he can play with his brother and do what 4 year old little boys are suppose to do!