My Sister
Well it has been the day from hell...Pike got shafted with a 4-1 so what that means in short is that any chance we ever had of seeing each other during the week is gone. So that means that I have a bf 2 fucking days a week again and besides the fact that when he is off he is gonna be sleeping cause of the shift he is on. Great, I am sitting here thinking about it crying cause it is a fucking piss off. I wanna scream...I wanna kill someone. All we wanted was the abilty to be a family more then 2 fucking days a week but hey I guess that may never fucking happen. I am so not mad at Pike cause I know that it is bothering him too, but I just know how I am gonna feel and that sucks. All we wanted was a day shift and it is a piss off that now I am diff gonna be alone everynight, Pike and Krista are both gonna be working. Well Hey what the fuck can ya do. I hate that jesus place I hope it blows up.
But onto my sister.. As I was reading her latest post I came across this "I am amazed my sister handles her kids as well as she does. She has no idea I feel like that." That is the truth. I always thought that she thought I was a horrible mom. I try my hardest and when I look in the mirror I know that I am a good mom. But just to hear it makes me feel so much better on a day that it feels like my family is falling apart. I know that whinning about all this makes no difference to anyone and that people problley think I am insane. But it makes me feel better and helps me vent.
But on a happy note there is less then a half hour to the tv auction so I guess I best get going.
But onto my sister.. As I was reading her latest post I came across this "I am amazed my sister handles her kids as well as she does. She has no idea I feel like that." That is the truth. I always thought that she thought I was a horrible mom. I try my hardest and when I look in the mirror I know that I am a good mom. But just to hear it makes me feel so much better on a day that it feels like my family is falling apart. I know that whinning about all this makes no difference to anyone and that people problley think I am insane. But it makes me feel better and helps me vent.
But on a happy note there is less then a half hour to the tv auction so I guess I best get going.