every damn word of this song is fantastic.
where's the love we had?
when did it go bad?
or am I just insecure?
I give all I can
baby I'm your man (pretend that says woman!!)
tell me what we're in this for
remind me
chorus
I can't go on
I know not what to do
my heart is worn
I feel as if I'm through
please believe in me
'cause what I need is for you
to believe in me
countless sleepless nights
never ending fights
I'm trying to make your dreams come true
I will sacrifice
to find paradise
but I need to know that you're
behind me
chorus
I can't go on
I know not what to do
my heart is worn
I feel as if I'm through
please believe in me
'cause what I need is for you
to believe in me
Allllrighty then... only had two tables today but still made $25 in tips because I'm awesome... I'm heading to Kevin's for a few days tomorrow... I really want to go tonight, but I have to hang around to let the cleaning lady in tomorrow, damn it. We have effing cameras! Can't we just hide a key and if someone that's not her gets it, sue them? Damn it. Paranoid freakin mother... Anywho. So, yeah. I think I'll just get these surveys done and then SLEEP!
DO IT, its a girl survey.
01. Eyeliner or mascara?
liner
02. American eagle or hollister?
neither!!!!!
03. Skirts or pants?
both
04. Socks or leggings?
socks
05. Hoodies or jackets?
hoodies
06. Heels or sneakers?
sneakers
07. Straight or curly hair?
straight
08. Hoop or dangling earrings?
hoop
09. Side bangs or one lengthed?
I like both
10. Your best color: White or black?
black
11. Victoria's Secret or Bath and Body Works?
BOTH! I love them both. *drool*
12. Smoothies or lattes?
smoothies
13. Diet or regular sodas?
regular
14. Water or daquiris?
virgin daquiris
15. Pearls or Diamonds?
Diamonds
17. This or That?
this.. it just seems so much more to imply that it's something I already have than "that"
18. IPOD or Cellphone?
cellphone
19. Friends or family?
I love/need both. always remember though, family can be friends.
20. Lip gloss or chapstick?
chapstick
21. Manicure or pedicures?
manicures. I can't stand strange people touching my feet. I barely like people I know touching them.
22. Love or peace?
love WITH peace. non-peace in love hurts me (especially if it's pointless non-peace). I don't like being hurt. In fact, I really truly hate being hurt.
23. Sunglasses or purses?
purses with sunglasses in them, ready for me whenever I need them.
X what you have:
[ ] an ipod
[ ] tiffany's necklace.
[xx] a Louis vuttion purse.
[ ] a coach purse
[ ] Dooney and Bourke
[ ] anything dior
[x] a computer.
[x] a cd player.
[x] a stereo.
[ ] a spice girl cd.
[ ] a cosmo girl magazine.
[x] a teddy bear.
[ ]a build a bear.
[ ]an American eagle purse.
[ ] hollister jeans.
[x]a hot topic shirt.
[x] a cell phone.
[ ] an aeropostale shirt.
[x] a big screen TV.
[ ] the mean girls dvd.
[x] a TV in my room.
[x]a big bed.
[x] diamond earrings.
[ ]a pearl necklace.
[xx] a prom dress.
[x]a book.
[x]a myspace.
[ ] curious perfume.
[ ] g-unit sneakers.
[x] a black shirt.
[ ] abercrombie skirt
[ ] converse
[x] diary or journal
[ ] pink nail polish
Girl Knowledge:
Do you know exactly where the blush goes?
uhhh ... yes. even though I rarely use any. and when I do, you pretty much can't tell. only I can, because I put it there.
Would you say you know how to put on make up?
yes indeed, I do now.
Do you know how to french braid?
know how, but suck at it.
Do you have a specific color of cover up or foundation you wear for your skin?
ha, no. I don't do that whole cover up/foundation thing. I put on a personality/emotional mask, not a physical one.
Do you wash your face at least once a day?
tehee... I try to.
Do you know what kind of lip gloss can make your teeth whiter?
no... there is one? SWEET! I want one.
Do you use an eyelash curler?
sometimes
Do you use waterproof mascara?
naw
how much do you pay for make up?
I pay only for chapstick and eyeliner... everything else, I've gotten from my sister or mom.
Does toothpaste really help acne?
I don't know, does it?
How many times a day do you apply lipgloss?
I only use chapstick unless I'm at work. there, I have no Kevin to kiss and lip gloss keeps them moist longer. I apply it once before I go to work, and if I eat or drink anything I apply it again.
~~
1. Using FOOD names, spell out your name.
T-bone steak
Angus beef
Risotto
Artichoke
2. What song makes you cry?
uhhh... nothin. Cry is too big a weakness for me to let something like a song influence it. (although, I've recently discovered that if I'm already crying, a line in a song that hits me hard can make me cry harder, such as "but lately I'm afraid that even love is not enough... but if you can look in my eyes, and tell me we'll be alright, if you promise never to leave, you just might make me believe" and what I put in the beginning of this entry.
3. What do you like to listen to before bed?
Kevin's voice
4. A p p e a r a n c e:
HEIGHT: 5'2"
HAIR COLOR: brunette
EYE COLOR: green/gray/blue
PIERCINGS: ears and belly button(for now)
TATTOOS: soon, hopefully
5. R i g h t N o w:
PANTS YOUR WEARING: none
WHATS ON YOUR MIND?: more worry, of course. and it won't go away until all of the mind-games stop.
WHAT SONG ARE YOU LISTENING TO?: "I Don't Feel Like Loving You Today" -Gretchen Wilson
WHAT TASTE IS IN YOUR MOUTH? nothin
WHAT'S THE WEATHER LIKE?: freezing cold!
HOW ARE YOU?: unsure, hopelessly giddy and in love(I'm never unsure about that!), and trying my best to believe my life will become un-this way very soon.
6. D o Y o u:
GET MOTION SICKNESS?: sometimes
HAVE A BAD HABIT?: picking at my face
GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS?: I get along with my mom
7. F a v o r i t e s:
TV SHOW: ??
CONDITIONER: Biolage
MAGAZINE: Victoria's Secret catalogue
8. H a ve Y o u:
BROKEN THE LAW: sure.
RAN AWAY FROM HOME: no
MADE A PRANK PHONE CALL: yep
USED YOUR PARENTS' CREDIT CARD BEFORE: yes, with her permission. plus, Greg gave me one for a while with my own name on it.
FALLEN ASLEEP IN THE SHOWER/BATH: yep
CHILDREN: not for a while
YOUR GREATEST REGRET?: beginning talking to Shawn again. I never knew what he was doing until it was too late. damn it. that's what I get for trusting something with a penis (that's not Kevin or Gavin)
9. R A N D O M!
YOUR CD PLAYER HAS IN IT RIGHT NOW: nothin
IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?: some kinda green-blue, no doubt
WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPIEST?: Kevin loving me
WHAT'S THE NEXT CD YOU'RE GONNA GET: uhhh ... no
LAST TIME YOU CRIED?: Saturday night, I ducked into the coat room for about 3 minutes at work so noone would know
LAST TIME YOU GOT A REAL LETTER?: holy damn... uhhh it's been a few years as far as I know.
LAST TIME YOU GOT AN E-MAIL?: uh... not sure. I never get those. (not real ones)
LAST TV PROGRAM YOU WATCHED: I don't remember
LAST MOVIE YOU SAW AT THE THEATER: 40 yr old virgin
10. What was the last thing you ate? pizza, which I shared with Amber at work today because it was pretty much dead...
11. Do you wish on stars? whenever I see a shooting star, I'm wishing, and it's been just one thing since November.
12. Last person you spoke to on the phone? Kevin
13. Do you like the person who sent this to you? she didn't send it, but mizz Emily Dotson is so sweet! she's adorable too. you should meet her.
14. How old are you? 18
15. Favorite drink? mmmm, juice
16. Favorite sport to watch? ... skaters and bmx people hurting themselves?
17. Have you ever dyed your hair? yes
18. Do you wear contacts or glasses? nope
19. Pets? my old spoiled rotten thing called Tigger
20. Favorite month? august
21. Favorite food? anything Italian
22. Favorite day of the year? uhhh... Halloween. duh.
23. What do you do to vent anger? I chew my crap out of my lips and I sit and stare with an empty gaze at nothing... and some part of me is always moving... like a tapping foot or twiddling fingers. Or... if I'm REALLY angry, I'm a complete statue. also, if it's simply mild anger or irritation, I get up and do something, like clean and what have you...
24. What was your favorite toy as a child? my favorite toy was being my brother and sister's favorite toy.
25. Fall or Spring? fall
26. Cherry or Blueberry? blueberry
27. What is on the floor of your closet? nothing, really, it's all up on shelves or hanging or whatever... it's a damn big closet.
28. Who is the friend you have had the longest? ms. Amanda Weinel, having fallen out of touch with ms. Jennifer Hose...
29. What did you do last night? I was with Kevin :D:D:D:D:D (add a million more grinning faces)
30. What inspires you? fear. and my biggest fear is hurt, so that's pretty damn inspiring to tell the truth. hurt ispires all kinds of things and realizations and such...
31. What are you afraid of? hurt.
32. Plain, cheese or spicy hamburger? cheese, ketchup, mustard, pickles
33. Favorite car? mmm, damn there are a lot. I've always loved Dodge Chargers (the classics- 67's and such) and Chevy Impala (both classic and current)
34. Number of keys on your key ring? 2
35. How many years at your current job? .04
36. Favorite day of the week? any I can go see Kevin, right now it's Wednesday because I'll be waking up and falling asleep with Kevin
37. How many states have you lived in? 1
38. How many cities have you lived in? 2 (I lived in Lansing when I was a baby)
oh... and a song I recently discovered easily sums SOME of my very worst fears, it's by Hinder, and it's called "Lips of an Angel".
I like another song by Hinder as well, although I hope I'll never have to relate to it- "Better Than Me"
when did it go bad?
or am I just insecure?
I give all I can
baby I'm your man (pretend that says woman!!)
tell me what we're in this for
remind me
chorus
I can't go on
I know not what to do
my heart is worn
I feel as if I'm through
please believe in me
'cause what I need is for you
to believe in me
countless sleepless nights
never ending fights
I'm trying to make your dreams come true
I will sacrifice
to find paradise
but I need to know that you're
behind me
chorus
I can't go on
I know not what to do
my heart is worn
I feel as if I'm through
please believe in me
'cause what I need is for you
to believe in me
Allllrighty then... only had two tables today but still made $25 in tips because I'm awesome... I'm heading to Kevin's for a few days tomorrow... I really want to go tonight, but I have to hang around to let the cleaning lady in tomorrow, damn it. We have effing cameras! Can't we just hide a key and if someone that's not her gets it, sue them? Damn it. Paranoid freakin mother... Anywho. So, yeah. I think I'll just get these surveys done and then SLEEP!
DO IT, its a girl survey.
01. Eyeliner or mascara?
liner
02. American eagle or hollister?
neither!!!!!
03. Skirts or pants?
both
04. Socks or leggings?
socks
05. Hoodies or jackets?
hoodies
06. Heels or sneakers?
sneakers
07. Straight or curly hair?
straight
08. Hoop or dangling earrings?
hoop
09. Side bangs or one lengthed?
I like both
10. Your best color: White or black?
black
11. Victoria's Secret or Bath and Body Works?
BOTH! I love them both. *drool*
12. Smoothies or lattes?
smoothies
13. Diet or regular sodas?
regular
14. Water or daquiris?
virgin daquiris
15. Pearls or Diamonds?
Diamonds
17. This or That?
this.. it just seems so much more to imply that it's something I already have than "that"
18. IPOD or Cellphone?
cellphone
19. Friends or family?
I love/need both. always remember though, family can be friends.
20. Lip gloss or chapstick?
chapstick
21. Manicure or pedicures?
manicures. I can't stand strange people touching my feet. I barely like people I know touching them.
22. Love or peace?
love WITH peace. non-peace in love hurts me (especially if it's pointless non-peace). I don't like being hurt. In fact, I really truly hate being hurt.
23. Sunglasses or purses?
purses with sunglasses in them, ready for me whenever I need them.
X what you have:
[ ] an ipod
[ ] tiffany's necklace.
[xx] a Louis vuttion purse.
[ ] a coach purse
[ ] Dooney and Bourke
[ ] anything dior
[x] a computer.
[x] a cd player.
[x] a stereo.
[ ] a spice girl cd.
[ ] a cosmo girl magazine.
[x] a teddy bear.
[ ]a build a bear.
[ ]an American eagle purse.
[ ] hollister jeans.
[x]a hot topic shirt.
[x] a cell phone.
[ ] an aeropostale shirt.
[x] a big screen TV.
[ ] the mean girls dvd.
[x] a TV in my room.
[x]a big bed.
[x] diamond earrings.
[ ]a pearl necklace.
[xx] a prom dress.
[x]a book.
[x]a myspace.
[ ] curious perfume.
[ ] g-unit sneakers.
[x] a black shirt.
[ ] abercrombie skirt
[ ] converse
[x] diary or journal
[ ] pink nail polish
Girl Knowledge:
Do you know exactly where the blush goes?
uhhh ... yes. even though I rarely use any. and when I do, you pretty much can't tell. only I can, because I put it there.
Would you say you know how to put on make up?
yes indeed, I do now.
Do you know how to french braid?
know how, but suck at it.
Do you have a specific color of cover up or foundation you wear for your skin?
ha, no. I don't do that whole cover up/foundation thing. I put on a personality/emotional mask, not a physical one.
Do you wash your face at least once a day?
tehee... I try to.
Do you know what kind of lip gloss can make your teeth whiter?
no... there is one? SWEET! I want one.
Do you use an eyelash curler?
sometimes
Do you use waterproof mascara?
naw
how much do you pay for make up?
I pay only for chapstick and eyeliner... everything else, I've gotten from my sister or mom.
Does toothpaste really help acne?
I don't know, does it?
How many times a day do you apply lipgloss?
I only use chapstick unless I'm at work. there, I have no Kevin to kiss and lip gloss keeps them moist longer. I apply it once before I go to work, and if I eat or drink anything I apply it again.
~~
1. Using FOOD names, spell out your name.
T-bone steak
Angus beef
Risotto
Artichoke
2. What song makes you cry?
uhhh... nothin. Cry is too big a weakness for me to let something like a song influence it. (although, I've recently discovered that if I'm already crying, a line in a song that hits me hard can make me cry harder, such as "but lately I'm afraid that even love is not enough... but if you can look in my eyes, and tell me we'll be alright, if you promise never to leave, you just might make me believe" and what I put in the beginning of this entry.
3. What do you like to listen to before bed?
Kevin's voice
4. A p p e a r a n c e:
HEIGHT: 5'2"
HAIR COLOR: brunette
EYE COLOR: green/gray/blue
PIERCINGS: ears and belly button(for now)
TATTOOS: soon, hopefully
5. R i g h t N o w:
PANTS YOUR WEARING: none
WHATS ON YOUR MIND?: more worry, of course. and it won't go away until all of the mind-games stop.
WHAT SONG ARE YOU LISTENING TO?: "I Don't Feel Like Loving You Today" -Gretchen Wilson
WHAT TASTE IS IN YOUR MOUTH? nothin
WHAT'S THE WEATHER LIKE?: freezing cold!
HOW ARE YOU?: unsure, hopelessly giddy and in love(I'm never unsure about that!), and trying my best to believe my life will become un-this way very soon.
6. D o Y o u:
GET MOTION SICKNESS?: sometimes
HAVE A BAD HABIT?: picking at my face
GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS?: I get along with my mom
7. F a v o r i t e s:
TV SHOW: ??
CONDITIONER: Biolage
MAGAZINE: Victoria's Secret catalogue
8. H a ve Y o u:
BROKEN THE LAW: sure.
RAN AWAY FROM HOME: no
MADE A PRANK PHONE CALL: yep
USED YOUR PARENTS' CREDIT CARD BEFORE: yes, with her permission. plus, Greg gave me one for a while with my own name on it.
FALLEN ASLEEP IN THE SHOWER/BATH: yep
CHILDREN: not for a while
YOUR GREATEST REGRET?: beginning talking to Shawn again. I never knew what he was doing until it was too late. damn it. that's what I get for trusting something with a penis (that's not Kevin or Gavin)
9. R A N D O M!
YOUR CD PLAYER HAS IN IT RIGHT NOW: nothin
IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?: some kinda green-blue, no doubt
WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPIEST?: Kevin loving me
WHAT'S THE NEXT CD YOU'RE GONNA GET: uhhh ... no
LAST TIME YOU CRIED?: Saturday night, I ducked into the coat room for about 3 minutes at work so noone would know
LAST TIME YOU GOT A REAL LETTER?: holy damn... uhhh it's been a few years as far as I know.
LAST TIME YOU GOT AN E-MAIL?: uh... not sure. I never get those. (not real ones)
LAST TV PROGRAM YOU WATCHED: I don't remember
LAST MOVIE YOU SAW AT THE THEATER: 40 yr old virgin
10. What was the last thing you ate? pizza, which I shared with Amber at work today because it was pretty much dead...
11. Do you wish on stars? whenever I see a shooting star, I'm wishing, and it's been just one thing since November.
12. Last person you spoke to on the phone? Kevin
13. Do you like the person who sent this to you? she didn't send it, but mizz Emily Dotson is so sweet! she's adorable too. you should meet her.
14. How old are you? 18
15. Favorite drink? mmmm, juice
16. Favorite sport to watch? ... skaters and bmx people hurting themselves?
17. Have you ever dyed your hair? yes
18. Do you wear contacts or glasses? nope
19. Pets? my old spoiled rotten thing called Tigger
20. Favorite month? august
21. Favorite food? anything Italian
22. Favorite day of the year? uhhh... Halloween. duh.
23. What do you do to vent anger? I chew my crap out of my lips and I sit and stare with an empty gaze at nothing... and some part of me is always moving... like a tapping foot or twiddling fingers. Or... if I'm REALLY angry, I'm a complete statue. also, if it's simply mild anger or irritation, I get up and do something, like clean and what have you...
24. What was your favorite toy as a child? my favorite toy was being my brother and sister's favorite toy.
25. Fall or Spring? fall
26. Cherry or Blueberry? blueberry
27. What is on the floor of your closet? nothing, really, it's all up on shelves or hanging or whatever... it's a damn big closet.
28. Who is the friend you have had the longest? ms. Amanda Weinel, having fallen out of touch with ms. Jennifer Hose...
29. What did you do last night? I was with Kevin :D:D:D:D:D (add a million more grinning faces)
30. What inspires you? fear. and my biggest fear is hurt, so that's pretty damn inspiring to tell the truth. hurt ispires all kinds of things and realizations and such...
31. What are you afraid of? hurt.
32. Plain, cheese or spicy hamburger? cheese, ketchup, mustard, pickles
33. Favorite car? mmm, damn there are a lot. I've always loved Dodge Chargers (the classics- 67's and such) and Chevy Impala (both classic and current)
34. Number of keys on your key ring? 2
35. How many years at your current job? .04
36. Favorite day of the week? any I can go see Kevin, right now it's Wednesday because I'll be waking up and falling asleep with Kevin
37. How many states have you lived in? 1
38. How many cities have you lived in? 2 (I lived in Lansing when I was a baby)
oh... and a song I recently discovered easily sums SOME of my very worst fears, it's by Hinder, and it's called "Lips of an Angel".
I like another song by Hinder as well, although I hope I'll never have to relate to it- "Better Than Me"